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transference: refers to the unconscious patterns relating to ourselves. in a patient/psychotherapist relationship, it is the attitude of the patient toward the analyst based on early childhood experiences with parents and past experiences with significant others. these experiences are projected onto the analyst and there is high emotional charge.

countertransference: refers to the analyst unconsciously projecting their early childhood experiences on the patient. the therapist tries to be aware of their own transference issues.

archetype: refers to the universal images of human experiences. they are images that are present in childhood fantasy and mythology. archetypes are recurring motifs which arise from collective experience. they are an inherited tendency on the unconscious level.

complex: refers to patterns of psychic elements. complexes generally develop around a wound. they are deep unconscious wounds. examples include the father/mother complex, power complex, savior complex, and inferiority complex.

personal unconscious: refers to the automated cognitive process that goes on in the brain. the personal unconscious is largely contained of repressed memories and painful ideas. it is anchored in the self and is the area of cognitive activity that exists below awareness. freud emphasized sex and aggression, while jung saw it as the positive areas of our potential.

collective unconscious: refers to the deepest level of non-awareness that is transcendent through all cultures. It interacts with the anima/animus and examples include father, mother, wise man...

jung's typology: the four functions and the two attitudes: the two attitudes are introversion/extroversion. if you are introverted, you seek within yourself and have the need to be alone. on the other hand, extroverts are nourished by being with others. the four functions are broken down into sensation/intuition, and thinking/feeling. sensation refers to factual and by the book, like many doctors and mathematicians. intuition goes by gut feelings to judge things. people who think give reasons for liking or disliking something, while feelers see things in black and white, good or bad.

persona: the persona is the self that we present to others. it is our self presentation of who we think we are and who we want others to think we are. the symbol of the persona is the mask.

shadow: the shadow refers to the hidden or repressed self--the self we don't show to others. it is the dominant part of our unconscious. in dreams, the shadow is portrayed by a dark figure. a place we see the shadow in work is in projection, as we tend to see in others, qualities we don't like in ourselves.

inner marriage: refers to unconscious contents that come into the conscious. it is when the anima and animus are neutralized and become united with the ego.

common archetypes: an example of the situational archetype is the hero's quest. archetype figures include the trickster, primordial mother, magician, shadow, persona, wise old man/woman, anima/animus...

dreams in jungian analysis: according to jung, dreams are about restoring psychic equilibrium--compensation between the conscious attitude and the unconscious attitude. dreams describe the situation of the patient and used to predict the outcome of therapy. the function of dreams is the process toward knowing yourself.

objective vs. subjective dream analysis: objective dream analysis refers to the literal sense of the dream. every character in the dream is taken as that person in real life. the dream is a reaction of the unconscious to what is happening in the conscious. subjective dream analysis is interpreting dream figures as personified aspects of the dreamer's own personality. it is looking at the characters in the dream as elements of yourself.

dialoguing with a dream: dialoguing with a dream is to have a conversation with a dream aspect, or character. it is part of active imagination and should be transcribed on paper to be analyzed later.

active imagination: active imagination serves as the gateway between the conscious and unconscious world. it is the flow of thought and emotion between the ego and the unconscious. it is a way for the unconscious to communicate with the ego. it is a way to confront th dream image in waking life and the opportunity for the unconscious to express itself as equally as the conscious.

freud vs. jung on origin of religious impulse: freud believed that everything was driven by sex or repressed sexuality. jung believed in higher aspirations and spirit. he believed in man's drive for spirituality, saw man in connection with nature and others, and believed that part of our nature is spiritual.


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latest teachings... the shortest distance between two points is how far apart they are...

song lyric/quote of the moment... ahh barnacles... SB

MORNING CALLS...

what's with people calling me in the mornings before i get up? this morning, my sister called me before 9am! that's just way too early. what's up with that? i mean, at least i was able to help her out--yes, you sign your name on the bottom right hand corner of your check--but hey, couldn't it have waited until a little later? of course i must not really mind people calling and waking me up early mornings, cause i leave my damn phone on. and this does not include debby, who i actually told to call me early friday morning to make sure i wake up in time to catch the bus to the amtrak bus stop. i love you debby!!! or should i say mommy 1/2!!!


latest teachings... you learn something new every day...

song lyric/quote of the moment... i'm squidward, you're squidward, we're all squidward... SB

SAD NEWS...

I don't usually pass on news like this, but sometimes we need to pause and remember what life is all about.

There was a great loss recently in the entertainment world.
Larry La Prise, the Detroit native who wrote the song "Hokey Pokey," died last week at 83.

It was especially difficult for the family to keep him in the casket.
They'd put his left leg in and . . .well, you know the rest.


latest teachings... did you hear about the story of the hypochondriac that finally died? on his tombstone was the inscription "see!"

song lyric/quote of the moment... "save the whales. collect the whole set...

HUMAN FOR SALE...

You are worth exactly: $1,527,040.00.

find out how much you're worth at humanforsale.com and let me know...


latest teachings... do not use a hatchet to remove a fly from your friend's forehead...

song lyric/quote of the moment... ...and i'm sleeping with my clothes on... i came in through the window...last night... and you're gone... --lit

I'M UP...

look what time it is... and i'm freakin' up!!! ... only because i got a freakin' phone call from apple at freakin' 9 in the morning. don't those guys ever call any later???... think i'm sick again. oh please go away before friday when i get to see my love!

latest teachings... nice guys finish last...

song lyric/quote of the moment... "can we say shoes from texas are dumb?" -patrick

ANDREW...

Dear Amy, I like your website
with all those pictures so cool,
smitten with smiles as you enjoy times with your friends
and your Bestest Professor from school,
I also liked seeing my pictures there too,
with no compromising positions,
after all, if you had posted those other pix,
you might have needed a physician, :-)
It just makes me want to break out in song,
or perhaps crack a joke or a pun,
cause making a hit upon your site,
in general, is a whole lot of fun!

Best,
Andrew


latest teachings... always and never are two words you should always remember never to use...

song lyric/quote of the moment... "i know that i was meant for this world..." --sp

PRIMAL FEAR...

just finished the movie primal fear, and hey, i'm disappointed we didn't discuss it in my abnormal psych class last semester. hmm... perhaps we just didn't get to it?

latest teachings... reminder... too much junk food is gonna kill you amy. if you forget, just read this and put down that bag of cheetos and the candy bar...

song lyric/quote of the moment... "i hate my stupid computer!" --me

FREAKY U.S. HISTORY...

Here's a little part of US history which makes you go h-m-m-m-m...

Abraham Lincoln was elected to Congress in 1846.
John F. Kennedy was elected to Congress in 1946.

Abraham Lincoln was elected President in 1860.
John F. Kennedy was elected President in 1960.

The names Lincoln and Kennedy each contain seven letters.

Both were particularly concerned with civil rights.

Both wives lost their children while living in the White House.

Both Presidents were shot in the head.

Lincoln's secretary was named Kennedy.
Kennedy's secretary was named Lincoln.

Both were assassinated by Southerners.

Both were succeeded by Southerners.

Both successors were named Johnson.

Andrew Johnson, who succeeded Lincoln, was born in 1808.
Lyndon Johnson, who succeeded Kennedy, was born in 1908.

John Wilkes Booth, who assassinated Lincoln, was born in 1839.
Lee Harvey Oswald, who assassinated Kennedy, was born in 1939.

Both assassins were known by their three names.

Both names are composed of fifteen letters.

Lincoln was shot at the theater named "Kennedy."
Kennedy was shot in a car called "Lincoln."

Booth ran from the theater and was caught in a warehouse.
Oswald ran from a warehouse and was caught in a theater.

Booth and Oswald were assassinated before their trials.

And here's the kicker...

A week before Lincoln was shot, he was in Monroe, Maryland.
A week before Kennedy was shot, he was with Marilyn Monroe.


latest teachings... When the pin is pulled, Mr. Grenade is not our friend...

song lyric/quote of the moment... "if i had a penny for every time someone said i was good looking, i would have a penny!" --ben nelson

WHICH OF THE GREEK GODS ARE YOU?...

quite interesting...


Athena


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latest teachings... appease the gods...

song lyric/quote of the moment... all i can say is that my life is pretty plain, i like watching the puddles gather rain... --blind melon- 'no rain'

I HATE COMPUTERS...

as if i couldn't have any more computer problems, i cannot log into the default profile, which means that i lost all my emails again! what's up with all this???

latest teachings... i realize you're supposed to separate laundry into darks and lights, so get off my case. see, the two forces even come into play in something as innocent as laundry...

song lyric/quote of the moment... despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage... --sp

REM BABY, IT'S THE END OF THE WORLD...

It's The End Of The World As We Know It (And I Feel Fine)
By REM

That's great, it starts with an earthquake, birds and snakes, an aeroplane
- Lenny Bruce is not afraid. Eye of a hurricane, listen to yourself churn
world serves it's own needs, don't misserve your own needs. Feed it up a
knock, speed, grunt no, strength no. Ladder structure clatter with fear
of height, down height. Wire in a fire, represent the seven games in a
government for hire and a combat site. Left her wasn't coming in a hurry
with the furies breathing down your neck. Team by tem reporters baffled,
trump, tethered crop. Look at that low plane! Fine then. Uh oh,
overflow, population, common group, but it'll do. Save yourself, serve
yourself. World serves its own needs, listen to your heart bleed. Tell
me with the rapture and the reverent in bright light, feeling pretty
psyched.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

Six o' clock TV hour. Don't get caught in foreign tower. Slash and
burn, return, listen to yourself churn. Lock him in uniform and book
burning, blood letting.
Every motive escalate. Automotive incinerate. Light a candle, light a
votive. Step down, step down. Watch a hell crush, crush. Uh oh, this
means no fear cavalier.
Renegade and steer clear! A tournament, a tournament, a tournament of
lies. Offer me solutions, offer me alternatives and I decline.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

The other night I ripped a nice continental drift divide. Mount St.
Edilite. Leornard Berstein. Leonid Breshnev, Lenny Bruce and Lester
Bangs. Birthday party, cheesecake, jelly bean, boom! You symbiotic,
patriotic, slam, but neck, right? Right.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.


latest teachings... Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning... ahh... perhaps i should be eating an apple... it would seem as though i had dozens and dozens, looking at the time...


song lyric/quote of the moment...
"ubi dubium ibi libertas"
(where there is doubt there is freedom)

DUMB OL' TEXAS...

Texas version of "Survivor"
Contestants must travel from Amarillo through Fort Worth, Dallas, Houston, Austin, San Antonio, and back to Amarillo through San Marcos and Lubbock, driving a Volvo with a bumper sticker that reads: "I'm gay and I'm here to take your guns." First one to make the round-trip safely is the winner!


latest teachings... don't you dare take the name of texas in vain...

song lyric/quote of the moment... "what's so great about dumb ol' texas?" --patrick star

MR. GORSKY...

GUARANTEED TO MAKE YOU SMILE.....especially since it is supposed to be a true story:

On July 20, 1969, as commander of the Apollo 11 lunar module, Neil Armstrong was the first person to set foot on the moon. His first words after stepping on the moon, "That's one small step for man, one giant leap for mankind," were televised to earth and heard by millions. But just before he re-entered the lunar module, he made the enigmatic remark, "Good luck, Mr. Gorsky." Many people at NASA thought it was a casual remark concerning some rival Soviet cosmonaut. However, upon checking, there was no Gorsky in either the Russian or American space programs. Over the years, many people questioned Armstrong as to what the "Good luck, Mr. Gorsky" statement meant, but Armstrong always just smiled. On July 5, 1995, in Tampa Bay, Florida, while answering questions following a speech, a reporter brought up the 26-year old question to Armstrong. This time he finally responded. Mr. Gorsky had died, so Neil Armstrong felt he could answer the question. In 1938, when he was a kid in a small Midwest town, he was playing baseball with a friend in the backyard. His friend hit the ball, which landed in his neighbor's yard by the bedroom windows. His neighbors were Mr. and Mrs. Gorsky. As he leaned down to pick up the ball, young Armstrong heard Mrs. Gorsky shouting at Mr. Gorsky, "Sex! You want sex?! You'll get sex when the kid next door walks on the moon!"


latest teachings... turtles can breathe through their bums...

song lyric/quote of the moment...
Goodness sometimes things get bad
But I swear I'm doing all I can
So try all you want to
I'm gonna try too
If I get one ray of sunlight to hold in my hand
Maybe we can be happy again
I'll try for one ray of sunlight to hold in my hand
Maybe we can be happy and then...
--phantom planet- 'one ray of sunlight'

KILLER FUNNY...

KILLER BISCUITS >Date: Fri, 16 May 2003 02:42:32 EDT

KILLER BISCUITS WANTED FOR ATTEMPTED MURDER! (This is an actual associated Press headline) Linda Burnett, 23, a resident of San Diego, was visiting her in-laws and while there, she went to a nearby supermarket to pick up some groceries. Several people noticed her sitting in her car with the windows rolled up, her eyes closed, and both hands behind the back of her head. One customer who had been at the store for a while became concerned and walked over to the car. He noticed that Linda's eyes were now open, and she looked very strange. He asked her if she was okay, and Linda replied that she'd been shot in the back of the head, and had been holding her brain in for over an hour. The man called the paramedics, who broke into the car because the doors were locked. Linda refused to remove her hands from her head. When they finally got in, they found that Linda had a wad of dough stuck to the back of her head. A Pillsbury biscuit canister had exploded from the heat, making a loud noise that sounded like a gunshot, and the wad of dough hit her in the back of her head. When she reached back to find out what it was, she felt the spongy dough and thought it was her brains. She initially passed out, but quickly recovered and tried to hold her brains in for over an hour until someone noticed and came to her aid. And yes, she is blonde.....


latest teachings... a duck's quack doesn't echo and no one knows why...

song lyric/quote of the moment... "Without Honesty the Heart Knows No TRUTH" -- (X)ARy Conway

COOKIE RECIPE...

$250 COOKIE RECIPE (Recipe may be halved)

2 cups butter
24 oz. chocolate chips
4 cups flour
2 cups brown sugar
2 tsp. soda
1 tsp. salt
2 cups sugar
1 8 oz. Hershey Bar (grated)
5 cups blended oatmeal
4 eggs
2 tsp. baking powder
2 tsp. Vanilla
3 cups chopped nuts (your choice)

Measure oatmeal, and blend in a blender to a fine powder. Cream the butter and both sugars. Add eggs and vanilla; mix together with flour, oatmeal, salt, baking powder, and soda. Add chocolate chips, Hershey Bar, and nuts. Roll! into balls and place two inches apart on a cookie sheet. Bake for 10 minutes at 375 degrees. Makes 112 cookies.

haven't tried them yet, but i should...


latest teachings... To successfully keep robbers out of your house put six locks on your door. When you go out, lock every other one. No matter how long somebody stands there picking the locks, they are always locking three...

song lyrics of the moment...
i wish i could drive away to the sunset
back to the day that we first met
only believe the things i wrote
i'll put it in a note, yeah
cross my t's and dot my i's
better say hello, don't you dare say
goodbye
i'll write sincerely yours and sign my name
p.s. i love you forever and today...
--TAAR

UPDATED WEBSITE...

that's right, you've heard correctly. i've finally worked on my website, updating it. if you're wondering where all the pics have ran off to, there are a couple of links near the bottom of the page that link to yahoo photos where you'll be able to see many of the photos that were posted on my website. if you're still wondering where some of them are, please just let me know and i'll post them soon.


latest teachings... Maybe in order to understand mankind, we have to look at the word itself: "Mankind". Basically, it's made up of two separate words - "mank" and "ind". What do these words mean? It's a mystery, and that's why so is mankind. --deep thoughts by jack handey

RETURN OF THE APPLE...

so, from what i hear, my ibook has arrived and he couldn't wait to get it, so he sped up to debby's to get his hands on it. found out that stupid fedex still hasn't picked up the "curse" yet. what do you freakin' have to do to get a package picked up around here?

glad my weekend's started. gosh, three days of class have worn me out... or perhaps it's staying up till the wee hours of the morning... perhaps we shall never know...


latest teachings... "you can only see difference when it's different." --dr. margie purser

too early--just woke up.


latest teachings... rohnert park pop. 39,100. i wonder if that includes me? it just might be 39,101...

i'm gonna try something new here, so please bear with me...

"Parallel Universe"

i am walking, following someone. there is water. i step on wood and bushes to stay out of the water. we reach a woods. there are metal fork and spoons of different sizes all over the ground. we start picking them up as i realize that i can use them for my spoon bending party. soon a car comes by. we hide the spoons and forks behind us. the car keeps going. it doesn't look like an ordinary car. the couple that are in it are elderly. no one is driving. it's more like they're riding on their own personal bus. we follow and jump into the car. at first the couple does not notice us and we realize that we are not with ordinary people. these people are different and we hope they are friendly. finally they recognize us and we go to their place. once there they explain that we are in a parallel universe, very similar to our own. we are at a beach. we notice our ear pieces to communicate are only fuzzy. we take them out and try to find a way back to our own universe.

latest teachings... dream work is an awesome experience and it's amazing how others can bring insight to your weirdest dreams and open your mind to numerous possibilities you could not imagine before. please leave your comments on the dream or feel free to share your own personal experiences with dream work.

yeah, it sure is nice to come home and find out that the internet is working. it sure is nice to have the computer working as well. i was really beginning to think that i just wasn't meant to have a computer. we'll have to wait to see what's to come...

okay, so according to that dumb kid, also known as "that boy", it's only about 208 hours before i get to see him again. i guess that's not very long--a little over a week, but hey, i actually have to live it out, so shut up!

i have about 14 or so mosquito bites on my arms and legs. it's rather itchy. rather annoying as well.

think i'm going to give "that boy" his birthday present early. you know me, i can never wait. if i didn't already have a downfall, that just might have been it. please forgive me. i hate wait.

gosh, i had so much to say yesterday, really two days ago now, yeah, when my computer wasn't up and running. i just can't think of it now. i'll be sure to let you know if i remember.


latest teachings... sign: "harry's sleazy bar, come in and be plastered" --victor daniels

ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!! gotta finish reading three weeks of online reading... all before 7pm... please wish me luck... anthro. class cancelled today... dr. purser ill... again. that dumb kid's birthday present arrived today... ;) it goes along well with the evil elephant :) love my kevin and debby... they're the greatest people ever! i'm so glad they came up to see me this weekend. we had a blast... even though the cat scared me and debby was loud and woke me up in the morning. i was sad to see them go. now i have to win the lottery so debby will move up here, and hopefully she'll bring kevin with her. *hint hint* love you guys :)

latest teachings... "be careful!" --debby

if you already haven't been here, go visit the ai website and talk to alice.

latest teachings... learn from your siblings' mistakes so your family doesn't hate you as well...

yea!!! i'm finished for the weekend. plus, the quiz was super easy. we didn't even have to know all the things that were on the study quiz! so i'm into my weekend now. :) sunday's just around the corner, and then i get to see two of my favorite people. :) okay, so maybe one of my favorite persons and then "that boy" as well. jk. no, i really love them both, but debby, you're still in the middle!


latest teachings... does "wamps the bejeezus" have any particular meaning to anyone? how about, "whacking great big stone?" i mean, these guys up here raiding the bejeezus outta them... so, "that was 6000 years in 2 days, but if it was a geology course, it would've been 7 millennia." oh yeah, and polyglot means many tongues--poly meaning many, glot meaning tongue.

i like jeff... he took care of me. :)

i've been transferred to three or four different people and no one can fix my problem. stupid computer. i knew you sucked! i was only trying to enroll in my applecare protection plan. why do you have to give me problems so?

i joke is not meant to hurt. i prank is not meant to be mean. it is for kicks, merely entertainment purposes, but i will try harder if it is no longer funny, if this is what you want.

with that said, guess i'll head to bed now...

so... i've learned some new things today. i just forgot what they were. oh wait... i think my memory is coming to me... carl gustav jung came up with the terms introvert and extrovert. he also came up with the term persona, the mask we all wear. if you'd like to catch a good series of films on the man, watch "the wisdom of the dream." on a different note, i learned that operational definition is used to avoid ambiguity. it is "a description of the operations that need to be performed in order to produce or observe a given experiment." thus i give you an operation to perform that is clear enough that not only will you be able to follow it out to my exact specifications, but another person will be able to reproduce this operation at a later time.

enough teachings for now...

talked to rene' who is going to let me tutor for her online. i'm pretty psyched and stuff cause now i finally have a purpose. i only hope that the students get out there and use the available resources to them. hint hint--ME!

umm... i found a way to sit through class--drink a mocha. except of course now i'm all wired. don't you wish you were here with me?

i have a quiz tomorrow. i really should study for it. it shouldn't be too hard though. it's a map quiz and all i need to do is memorize a few names of different places and sites.

i'm up and running. yipee!!!

gotta go to class. see ya...

so... my computer is working online. of course, i'm using my roommate's jack, as mine has yet to still be activated. we'll see how that goes...

you gotta check this out. it's my little freshman :)

well well. another day, another day under my belt.

my roommate took me grocery shopping last night. my purchases consisted of ice cream, cookies, halloween pumpkin candy, and chocolate... well, i did get some other stuff as well, but those are the less important items. however, i did win a bag of hersey's nuggets. what's up with sending the wrapper in to get my coupon though? sounds like a bunch of crap to me. they always know that i never do the right thing and then i get a response back saying i didn't give the right information and so now i'm not getting my rebate or coupon. my end-all way to fix this serious problem is for the stupid companies to just put the money inside the wrapper. now, would this be so hard? or, at least attach the bag of candy to the "winner" ones.

i hope that dumb kid knows that i'm not leaving him for the olive garden. i have resorted to calling him "jack" when he... acts like jack basically. don't be sad, dumb kid. i'll see you on sunday. that's about 145 hours from now. ;)

remember... "ape shall never kill ape"

bumblebee tunafish. i am as happy as a clam!

aha! and the day is mine, trebek!

i would just like to take the time right now to apologize for corrupting everyone and using the f-word. my bad...

and no... i didn't get a gateway! sorry to disappoint all you cow lovers, but i can't have "that boy" crying over something as silly as a dumb stupid computer. in fact, i fear this is one of the last days i'll be computerless. it's kinda sad in a way. :(

i don't know who posted the comment from porterville college, but i fear that they're all out to get me now. just remember, that i'm only a little kid, and i'll tell my mommy...

did my laundry yesterday. it took a freakin' long time. of course at home, mom always did my laundry for me. just so you know though, i've done laundry in the past. in fact, that was like my only chore at home for a while until i stopped doing it and mom started doing it again. did i mention that i dearly love my mom?

i called my little bro up. he didn't talk much. he never talks much on the phone. said he passed the fifth grade though. congrats to him. :) anyways, he gave the phone to his dad, and so i got to talk to dad. it's kinda weird, ya know. i mean, this was at least the second time that i've talked on the phone to my friends' dad longer than they'll let me talk to them. i don't know, it just seems kinda wrong to me...

well, still can't get into the class site to read the readings for my english class. i hope i'm not just screwed. professor won't even respond to my emails. now what's up with that?

i miss statistics! i wanna tutor statistics! i wanna teach mommy's class! i wonder if she ever ate that ice cream cake that i put in her freezer?!

i'm a dork

i'm getting hungry again.

going away to college has given me tons of spare time. however, one thing i haven't been doing much lately in this spare time is thinking. seems as though i'm always doing my thinking during class or reading for class...

i'm gonna brave the f-word and go ahead and use it, but yeah, i've been thinking of my future. i guess i've never really thought much about what i was actually going to do after college. i just accepted the fact that i would always be in school. it has been my life for the past 18-20 years. it was all i knew. but things change. i've realized that now all i want to do is be finished with this same mundane setting and need a change. i can't really say that i miss my life as it used to be. i've changed too much for that. the transitions i've fought with are now accepted as a part of life. i just want the accomplishment of my education behind me for once and i long for home. he is home, and that is all that needs to be said...

things aren't so bad. i guess i have to realize that if "that boy" were here, i would lose my focus on my studies. this is a time for us to both grow, on our own and together. i take a day at a time and know that things will all work out in the end...

college has taught me a great deal of things.

there is nothing to fear... well maybe except for the noise of vacuum cleaners, being alone, dead people, speaking in public, falling, automobiles, going to the dentist, sirens, high places, worms, receiving injections, bats, authority figures, insects, looking foolish, being in the middle of crowds, cats, birds, the sight of deep water, dead animals, fire, angry people, blood, enclosed places, feeling rejected by others, cemetaries, lightning, darkness, or losing control... just to name a few...

"excuse me," she said, "but do you have the time?"
"no," i replied, "time has me!"

last night i was in a good mood. i just couldn't be mad. not that i was trying, but i had my spirits up and i was too darn happy. sprinklers come on late here. 2:30am. or perhaps early is a better word. a more appropriate word. couldn't sleep, so i was up reading.

i've just added a way for commenting. so... if you'd like to add any comments, please feel free to post them at your own discretion...

we no have won ton. we have won ton backward--NOT NOW!

i just learned that "people don't bury themselves" in my anthro class. i guess you learn something new every day.

a new day. now i'm in a panic. i don't know these people. what have i done??? i feel as though i blew it! i guess i've just realized how many people i don't know. oh no, i'm screwed!!!

okay, i have no life. that's why i'm just sitting here killing off chicken little...

the sky is falling the sky is falling

SPLAT

and chicken little died...

you can't fall if you're already on the ground

so pick yourself up and get on with the show

greatness comes out of nothing spectacular

don't blow it

you killed it

i'm sad

we're glad

bling bling! okay, so what exactly does "bling bling" mean? this is me admitting that i don't know everything. i've grasped "shiny" and that's about it. so, when i'm at the table and there's a sign on the wall that reads "bling bling representin' the 707" then i have to laugh. don't mind me. it's late. well, it's not even quite 1:30 in the middle of the day, but hey, i have class in a bit and i've been staying up much too late at night. not that i have early morning classes or anything. but hey, i got a phone call this morning and it was before freakin' 10 in the morning. plus, i have this reoccuring thought that i'll sleep through one of my classes. i know, i know, don't mind me. i just like to complain cause debby says i'm a "whiner!" of course no one can say this like debby. :) later gator... sayonara all... we shall meet again someday. we shall meet again...

by the way... what the hell is spooning???

it's early. too early for me actually. except that i went to bed before 1, i think. see, i can't even remember anything anymore. but then, did i ever remember anything before??? i've been thinking about writing a book. or maybe it'll be a collection of works. i'm afraid it might scare everyone though. but like i haven't scared everyone already. *insert evil grin here*

NICE SURPRISE...

what was intended to be a nice surprise for my kevin, ended up dying a horrible tragic death in the instance that he did not want to play along. so... after calling my mom early thursday morning and asking her if they would come get me after dropping off my sister at sac state and her telling me NO, i get the opportunity to ride the train down to corcoran. i call debby up and ask her if i should tell kevin i am coming. we both agree that it should be a surprise. so debby spent two days planning this out, meanwhile reassuring me that she'll "get kevin up here (to her house) if i have to drag him after work." the two things i have to do are not let him know i'm coming down, and once i'm there, not go to subway. the night before, we're talking on the phone. kevin is also chatting with debby online. she tells him if he's nice to her she'll come pick me up on saturday. he totally does not believe her. he tries to convince his mom to come up to get me. she refuses. he has no clue. i wake up early friday morning, especially early, as i was up late the night before on the phone. i took the sonoma county transit from here at ssu to the amtrak bus stop in front of the ihop. the amtrak bus was late, but it finally showed up. we arrived in martinez around 10:35am and the train arrived around 11am. it was kinda funny cause the night before, debby told kevin she would just send me home on the train and kevin said he didn't want me riding the train and he'd rather drive me up himself. anyways, the train ride was nice. it was much better than driving. ate a hot dog and got some color cookies. debby called and was panicky saying kevin was going to call my parents to see if they were home so he could take them a card. luckily, i had left a message on johnny's phone telling them it was going to be a surprise. i guess i was just in time too, as my mom said she was ready to call kevin to pick me up at the train station as a surprise to me. i reassured debby and told her they knew. plus, i didn't think anyone was going to be home, as mom went to get her hair done. arrived in corcoran around 3:20pm but had to wait a bit for mom and johnny to get there. it was very hot. called amir since it was his birthday. when we got to town, mom drove by subway. i had to hide in the back seat. it sure was hard though to not go in. debby was asleep when i called, but then i received a text message as we were in the jack in the box drive thru. i called back and kym told me she was asleep. i told her that i kept getting text messages from her though so she went in and gave her the phone. mom went by and got a couple of take n bake pizzas, then took me by save mart to get some milk for debby. then, we went home to get johnny and they drove me up there. they talked some before my parents left. kids jumped on me! they got their yucky egg hands all over my face. yuck! that night, brandon and kristi came up. brandon left a message on kevin's phone to call him back. we agreed that he must be in the shower since his away message was on. meanwhile, kym and i read his and debby's info they posted for their online php class. kevin's interesting fact was that he belonged to amy. :) brandon started chatting with him when he got back online and then he called him. as brandon was trying to convince him to come, i sent him a text message asking him if he talked to debby yet. brandon killed it though cause he told him to come up and that if he did he wouldn't regret it and he would benefit from it. i think this kinda scared kevin. then he told him to bring a toothbrush because...um...debby needed one and he didn't have one... so after he gets a text message from me, he hangs up on brandon and calls me up. he's telling me that brandon and debby want him to come up but that he doesn't really want to. he's tired and he knows he won't get home until late. this is where debby would say "whiiiiiiiiiiinnnnerrr" meanwhile, now debby is chatting with him online. he tells me he thinks they're not telling him everything. well duh! he asks me what he should do. i tell him to figure it out himself. plus, he has to wake up early to go to work at 11am! finally, debby has to tell him that i am here! as i'm talking to him he says "you guys are mean! i hate you! you guys are so mean!" poor kevin. debby comes out and i make her talk to him. kym and i see what she told him. she said... you're on the phone with amy, right? wanna know how i know? she's sitting here on my swing. he was sad. said he was going to cry. my poor baby. it was supposed to be a nice surprise, just for him. as he is sitting in his underwear, he throws his clothes on and speeds up to debby's, slowing down only when passing cars along the way. i lay on the couch because debby wants us to act it out. brandon sits prepared with the camera. debby goes to wait outside. we all wonder what time he got off the phone. we all bet that he'll be there in record time. brandon feels terrible. he knows kevin does not like to be pressured since he usually ends up giving in. sounds like someone i know. kevin gets there. he comes in and falls on me on the couch. i get squished. it sure is nice to see kevin. i am sure glad i have come. i can't seem to wait for the day when we can always be together. he is the other half of my being. brandon has to leave. kristi wants to go horseback riding in the morning. debby refuses to let us sleep with her in her bed. instead we pull the couch bed out. it still has plastic on it and is kinda uncomfortable and hot. the cats come lay by kevin. heathcliff is okay, but poopsie should be outside. i go lay on the floor by the kitchen. kevin comes and lays down by me. we move back to the bed. the cats are still there. i get hot and so i climb down and lay on the floor at the foot of the bed. i must've been really tired, cause next thing i know, i'm waking up and it's morning and i'm still on the floor, same position i last remembered, but with a blanket over me. i think, "poor kevin" he probably cried himself to sleep thinking "my girlfriend would rather sleep on the floor than with me."