going away to college has given me tons of spare time. however, one thing i haven't been doing much lately in this spare time is thinking. seems as though i'm always doing my thinking during class or reading for class...

i'm gonna brave the f-word and go ahead and use it, but yeah, i've been thinking of my future. i guess i've never really thought much about what i was actually going to do after college. i just accepted the fact that i would always be in school. it has been my life for the past 18-20 years. it was all i knew. but things change. i've realized that now all i want to do is be finished with this same mundane setting and need a change. i can't really say that i miss my life as it used to be. i've changed too much for that. the transitions i've fought with are now accepted as a part of life. i just want the accomplishment of my education behind me for once and i long for home. he is home, and that is all that needs to be said...

things aren't so bad. i guess i have to realize that if "that boy" were here, i would lose my focus on my studies. this is a time for us to both grow, on our own and together. i take a day at a time and know that things will all work out in the end...