what the hell???

well...i'm headed to the beach tomorrow morning with josh. emily and bryon are headed over there right now and so we should be able to see them before they have to come back tomorrow night. there's so much to say, but can't say it all now. julie can't go, she has court. it's pretty stupid, if ya ask me, but anyways... i'm glad for the vacation. i need to get away, even if it's only for a few days. i'll be back though and then maybe i'll be ready to take on the rest of the world...laters....

man...i broke my computer... i deleted something that was in my recycle bin that wasn't supposed to be in there and now i can't open any applications... only after some creative maneuvers have i been able to open up a few of my programs... anyways, friday i spent the day with emily--she ran me by the dmv to pick up some driver's books. i got three in english and one in spanish. i think i'll take the test in spanish, so that way if i fail, i can always say..."but i couldn't understand it cause it was in spanish!!!" anyways, we ran by office max, where i bought some zip disks, and then wal-mart, where i bought an enrique iglesias cd...then, we went to whites to visit bryon and stopped by stafford's. larry even gave us a turtle shaped chocolate to eat there. whites was busy, so we went home--to emily's and bryon's and looked through the wedding pics i brought for emily for their scrapbook. joshy called and asked me if i wanted to go to the movies before he had to leave for his brother's in tulare to babysit. i met him to see mr. deeds which was at 1:50pm and we saw that. then, he took me by nana's where emily was doing her laundry. we talked, i ate, emily did some laundry, i took a nap, and we didn't leave until around 6:30pm. then, emily brought me home and i broke the computer... i've been trying to move all my files over to the other computer though so i can save them on zip disks so bryon can fix the new computer so we can use that one... this one definitely needs some help. i'm lucky to be able to get into this to write in my blog and to check my email. well...today (yesterday) i didn't do much. worked on saving more files and ran into town with mom and johnny to get a sandwich for dinner. actually, today is johnny's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHNNY!!! man...he's 44. i thought he was older than that... well...i better get going... hope to see y'all soon....

hellowwwww..... okay...so i haven't been keeping up with my blog, but you don't wanna hear all what's been going on anyways... this past weekend, josh housesat and babysat me. he had to save me twice, once from a black widow, the second time from a scorpion. he and christian made us dinner friday night and we all sat down and ate a nice dinner (we all as in me, julie, emily and bryon, josh, christian and sandra, and nat). pretty cool eh? what a nice happy little family. the next morning i woke up to josh making pancakes. he made me a triangle pancake and a mickey mouse pancake. we went to the movies then over to christian's. sunday i went over to kris's and monday morning, josh took me to school. the parents got home late monday night. received a huge surprise yesterday which made my day--micah and stacey came by on their day off to visit with me. another surprise was mommy coming by to pick up her tests. man...i just had to ask her..."why do you have braces?" anyways, she had to leave and i didn't even get to talk to her. kris came by to return my pencils--mis lapiceros. both micah and stacey said she didn't look too happy with me. didn't have to take my spanish test. spanish class didn't begin until 9am today. that was nice because i was able to sleep in about an hour after staying up until a little after 1:30am the night before talking with anahi. we gave our presentations...mikey's group's presentation was great--they did a classroom skit and mikey was the instructor, acting like sr. martínez. it was hilarious. we also finished watching la bamba and had a pot luck. i brought brownies i made the night before and there was nachos, seven layer bean dip, enchiladas, tortillas, chips, salsa, cake, cookies, and soda. as if that weren't enough, i found that i had a 109%, the highest grade in the class, and so i don't even have to go to school tomorrow for the final, nor do i have to turn in my notebook. marilyn gave me the rest of her soda, and when i went to the learning center, one of my students, maribel, who i've been helping in english and who julie tutored last semester, brought be lunch-- a whole dinner box full of pancit she made after she and i talked about pancit and i told her how much i liked it. boy was it delicious. YUMMY!!! and to think...i thought that nobody loved me. i also worked on my parenting skills lab and i am a horrible person because i hit my child. hey...he wouldn't shut up... anyways, today emily picked me up and it was the first time i've been with her alone when she's been driving. we met bryon at china's and ate then went over to the theatre to see what was playing. nothing looked worth $7.50, so we went to blockbuster where i saw john from class and we rented the royal tanenbaums. that was just a strange movie. i don't know what else to say about it. of course while we were watching it, emily received a phone call and was offered a job she just couldn't refuse. now she has to go in to work tomorrow and give steve her two week notice. after this phone call, she became really popular and the phone just wouldn't keep quiet. finally, we finished the film and she and bryon brought me home. man...today's been a great day... i wonder what my horoscope read for today...

today has gone better than yesterday for one thing... although yesterday after i talked to charlene, i felt a whole lot better.

hey...don't hate me...anyways...kris just left about twenty minutes ago. she was nice enough to give me a ride home since mom and johnny went to visalia to look for outfits to wear to kamber's wedding this weekend. josh says that he'll babysit me and he'll even watch fiddler on the roof with me. however, kris watched the end of the sixth sense with me today...after she made me make her a turkey sandwich and some easy mac and cheese because all she had to eat today was a soda...not even water...she told me that joshua keeps calling her mom around other people. she doesn't like it, but i think it's funny. hahaha... so...neither of us did any homework...and i'm still not doing any...however, i only have a couple of pages to write on mariachi culture for extra credit... josh got to level 400 today on penguin puzzle. we're keeping it going to see how far we can get...hmm... it was nice today with no class. however, i had mom drop me off at school this morning anyways...and...i did finish my spanish workbook chap. 6 extra credit work, so i can turn that in tomorrow. i saw michelle this morning and we talked for a while before i went to get a ham egg and cheese burrito for breakfast. boy the cafeteria's breakfasts are the best...and victoria is the best cook ever!!! her food is YUMMY!!! mom and johnny just got home... i tutored a bunch of people today--long day. oh yeah, before i forget...josh also says that he'll make me triangle pancakes...isn't that sweet??? well...i will be back later...goin' to check out if they brought me home anything....

okay...so it's around 9:30pm and mom and i just got back from a ride into town. johnny is at a latin jazz concert with his jazz students and julie is at christian's house. yesterday, we went over to josh's for a get together 4th of july/moving out of the keele's house party. first we had to stop by the grocery store though to pick up some food. we got there just in time. it was just before five and the store was closing at five. however, julie and alicia did not know where anything was. we went swimming, jumped on the trampoline--then sat on it for a while, i rode a scooter, ate barbequed hamburgers and hotdogs, josh and i went outside to watch the fireworks, then, we all watched the movie "the legend of drunken master" starring jackie chan. josh went to bed after the movie and everyone went home. julie and i stayed and julie slept on the couch and i slept in leslie's room. this morning, julie and i ate mint chip ice cream with carmel topping, whip cream, and a cherry for breakfast. yummy!!! josh had to clean up the house and pack up his stuff to take home. he dropped us off at home around 1pm and then had to go home for his family reunion get together thingy at his house. when we got home, i tried to help around the house...vacuuming the living room and stuff. then i didn't feel too well though and had to stop. it was pretty hot too. called emily and talked to her. she had the day off work and was doing some work around the house. mom and i ran over there to drop off their clothes and some other things. it is their 6th month anniversary and she was going to make dinner. i wanted to stay, but mom wouldn't let me. mom took me by longs so i could take in four of my rolls of film to be developed. i thought i had like 10 or 11 rolls to be developed, but i could only find 8. i hope i didn't lose any. anyways, i could only afford to develop half of them at the moment. i'm poor. i saw fernando though. he offered to develop them one hour for me for the same price as next day, but i told him that it was okay since i wouldn't be able to come pick them up later today. i don't remember all what i have pictures of. i know some must be from graduation and there may be some from kris's house and from amir's party and the ptk party. however, it will be a surprise what is on the rolls i took in. i guess i will have to wait until at least tomorrow to find out. i have no idea what i'll be doing tomorrow. perhaps sleeping a lot. hopefully one of my wonderful friends will give me a call wanting to "do" something so i can do something besides sleep all day. until then...

yo yo yo...what up??? kris just left my house like half an hour ago. she had to go pick up her sister from college. man...she should've just left her there for the weekend. anyways...she convinced me to put on the sixth sense...again. i mean...how many freakin' times am i gonna have to watch it with her??? well...we almost had to watch beauty and the beast. last time we so called "watched" it, i had to fast forward through most of the movie. anyways... we took a walk to see the house and popped some of those popper thingys. this morning i saw michelle in the trio office. we talked for a bit since when i went by my class, it was locked. i brought some tortilla chips and some salsa. julie and josh w. ran by the mini mart last night on their way to see mr. deeds to pick me up a bag of chips...how nice... anyways, we had to take a test...but then we went over to lynda's house and ate a bunch of food. she gave me a ride and we talked about school and stuff. she has a really nice house. almost the whole class came for the potluck. we had enchiladas, rice, burritos, 7 layer bean dip, homemade salsa, a whole bunch of different chips, and soda... we stayed there and had a good time. brendan gave us a ride back to school. he's the craziest driver i've ever had the privilege of riding with. he takes the off ramps at above 40 m.p.h. and weaves in and out of cars on the freeway. let me tell you...it was thrilling, but it was scary. clocked in at noon today to get me other two hours in since tomorrow is a holiday. josh was playing the penguin puzzle and had been playing it since 8am. he almost made it to level two hundred when he finally left and i took over from there. when i left at six, we were over level three hundred. i tutored ramon this morning in stats. i also read an english paper and helped maribel with her stats a little. mostly we talked though. kris, lisa, and joshua came by. charlene caught a glance at them and thought lisa was just one of kris's friends with her little brother. well...she is only 25 or 26, and her son is 3. man... i mean, anahi is 24, their brother is 22, and kris is almost 21. that's crazy. well... i'm still awaiting my response from rene'. i emailed her and she hasn't emailed me back yet. perhaps i am just too impatient... well...this might be a little off topic, but... why lately have i felt that i'm screwing myself up more and more??? we live in a strange and crazy world, and i am one messed up sick person...

okay...so kris just left...she came over to work on some of her trig homework. i was good. i promise. i wasn't even a little bit mean to her. anyways, i hope she's feeling better soon. she's feeling kinda dizzy. she shouldn't be driving when she feels this way. anyways... today maribel showed me her quiz. she missed problem four because she put 2.000 instead of 2 or 2.0 and it was all my fault because i was the one who told her to carry out her answers to four decimal points. however, she forgot the fourth one. hmmm..... well... josh clocked me in at noon today so i could get two hours i won't be getting on thursday. tomorrow i'll come in and clock in at the same time to get the other two hours. tomorrow we have a test in spanish on chapter five. this is good and bad...bad that we have to take a test, but good that it should be over around 9am then off to lynda's, a lady in the class who offered her home to us for a potluck. thanks lynda. then, after work... NO CLASS until tuesday of next week!!! YEA!!! anyways... julie babysat for buzz today. right now she actually found time to sit down and read. saw yolie this morning when i went in to sign in for my participation points for trio. we talked for a while about next year--she wants me to continue to work on the newsletter... michelle came in and came to give me a hug--haven't seen her in a while...anyways... i held my hand out instead for her to shake it and she got mad and slapped me. i swear... maribel should have done her binomial example on me getting slapped by my friends. let's say the probability of me getting slapped is .64 and it will be out of my next 100 encounters with friends. well... so maybe it's not a good binomial example, but maybe we could set up an experiment, eh??? josh drew a face on my hand. it's pretty cool. i should take a pic so y'all can see it. in my free time at work, which wasn't very long since i'm so popular... i downloaded songs onto my f drive...charlene told me i could do it!!! emily showed up, which was a nice surprise. she and bryon picked me up today because johnny had to go to bakersfield and mom was at ww. it was nice seeing them but they couldn't get their stuff--clothes, mail, etc, etc, etc.--cause they had to go to some meeting. well... i'll try to behave like yolie told me to do. it's hard, but i try... until i screw it all up again...

hey...what's up??? guess who i saw today... okay. you're never gonna guess, so i guess i'll just let you know--mrs. benander!!! that was cool. it made my day. gave her a big hug then told her a little about my spanish class. let's see...what else...oh yeah...you know who else i saw??? sheraz. yep. that's right. saw him carrying his computer to his car. put it inside...got in...and drove off. never to be seen again. at least hopefully not by josh. and nope...he didn't see me. since we're taking next monday off of class, our test on chapter five will be this wednesday. we got our tests back from chapter four. i didn't do as well. i mean, i knew i didn't do as well, but i wasn't expecting a 102!!! man was i surprised. anyways...charlene didn't come in to work today. tutored a couple of people in the morning. at one when josh got off, we went over to his place (still at the keele's...at least until they return this saturday) and swam. then, he had to take me back to the college so i could be there at two to work. we had a really fun great time throwing water bombs at each other, using the kick boards, going down the slide--he even got me to go down head first...etc, etc, etc. afterwards, he sprayed me off with the hose and took me back to school. boy was i refreshed for work. anyways, i was busy again today. of course josh had yet another slow day, playing games probably most of the time... helped some students--to the best of my knowledge--in math (both elementary and intermediate algebra), read a few papers, and helped maribel with her stats. kris and yolanda came by with joshua. kris brought me a keychain with my name on it from vegas. they were headed to the park. you know...it's just not fair...they got to go to the park, and i had to stay and work. man!!! josh didn't even remember me. how sad. gave her the parking pass that i picked up for her the other day though. i mean...i don't want her to walk all the way to where she's been parking. well... got home. did the dishes. talked to amir online and now i'm finishing up my blog for the day. if i can think of anything else interesting that has happened to me today, i'll be sure to include it later. until we shall meet again....