just got back from joshy's house. he came and picked me up a little after seven thirty and we went over to his church's park and ate some meat and beans. then, we went over to his house and rode scooters in the back yard. i didn't have my helmet on so i'm glad i didn't fall down and crack my head open. we went over to the pool and sat there while the sprinklers came on and talked and looked at the stars. finally, josh had to drive me home because he has to wake up early for a meeting tomorrow morning. so... i got home, read a mean email from amir... and now i'm talking to him online. he's telling me about some girl who lives in la or something like that and now he just left to talk to some other friends. if the keeles aren't back on monday, i'm going over to joshy's to swim between class and work. i hope they won't be back yet. i still haven't been able to swim and i really want to. well... that's all i have to say about that...

just got home from a day at maribel's house. first, her daughters cynthia and samantha and i played--they showed me their room and then they resorted to fixing my hair. then, we ate...chicken enchiladas and rice--YUMMY!!! maribel is a superb cook. her husband came home...cynthia and sammy were laughing throughout dinner... then, we watched mulan...it was the first time i've seen it. it was a good movie. sammy wants to be a little chinese girl because of it. finally, maribel and i sat down to work on some statistics (the reason i came over in the first place) and worked on chapters six through eight. she's finding that it's easier than it looks like to begin with--the same as with most of my other students who try to make it harder than it really is. well... we tired of stats so we took a look at her computer and i showed her how to scan pictures then email them, set her mic up, then tried to install her cd creator software which didn't allow us to install... hmmm... i never claimed to know a lot about computers. anyways, by this time it was about midnight, so she drove me home and now i'm up here on my dear 'ol computer that i love oh so much. it is almost one... i'm not sure when i'll get to sleep, and i feel like going downstairs to get something to eat. last night i had some crazy dreams... perhaps amir is right about dreaming after eating late. oh well... i actually like to dream. sometimes dreams are the only place we can truly have what we've always wanted. please take a number....

ohhh... umm... well now... i don't know if i have much of anything to say right now... i mean, i'm talking to amir right now and so you can guess why i don't have much to say... oh well... took our test today. got out of class early. took a short nap, and i say short because josh tickled my feet a couple of times and woke me up then mike took a picture of me which woke me up again. so... i took a walk and then went to the cafeteria to get something to eat. talked to victoria some while i was deciding what to eat. finally decided to have some chicken (no not kitchen, since anahi was not there), some green beans, and a home made bisquit. yummy. went back to the lc where i ate and then one of my stats students came needing help. helped him until he had to leave for work at noon. a little before one, roxana came with one of her english essays and josh had me read it. from then until about ten minutes till six, i had a student the whole time. roxana helped me with my spanish vocab sentences, and maribel came by for help. there were three other people ahead of her though so she left and we agreed she would call me tomorrow and then i would go over to her place to help her with her stats. but... this is only when she agreed to make me something to eat--chicken enchiladas--YUMMY!!! boy, i love my job!!! angelica came by... she scared me to death. she, charlene, and i listened to a couple of my solos on the studio band cd in charlene's office. that was pretty cool. then i had to leave. i had tried to call kris a couple of times to check on her, but their phone line was busy. gosh, it's always busy when i call. came home. mom and i went to hoagies to have dinner. emily wasn't working, but dinner was good. it was nice spending time with mom too. lately i've been busy with other stuff and haven't spent as much time with my family. i'm hoping to spend more time with emily and bryon because they are such good people and i am so lucky to have them in my family. i am still indecisive as to whether or not i should go to amir's over the fourth of july. i mean...i know it will be fun and all...i just don't know. talked to judy this morning and she said that i should go. i'm still not sure though. it's up in the air. i hate making decisions. i mean, i want to go, but at the same time, i want to stay here. i don't know why i always get myself into these kinds of predicaments. well... if you have any suggestions, please, feel free to bombard me with them. that is, everyone except amir. amir... no offense dude, but i already know what you think.... until i rant and rave yet again....

okay...i'm studying for my test tomorrow (i didn't think we had one, but i was wrong) but i thought i would take the time to post a quick blog. i got a response from rene'. she sounds very busy and i hope she's having fun. class went pretty well today. i was glad when 11am rolled around though. i met angelica and she and her friend took me to drive by the trees she wants to save from being cut down. then...we went for pizza at round table. her friend, ryan was his name, i believe...if not...my bad...was kinda quiet and shy. we ate some pepperoni pizza...yes, angelica the "vegetarian" ate it too... it was good, but angelica thought it would taste a whole lot better with lots of parmesian cheese on top of it... like twelve or so packets of cheese. then, her friend took away her drink and had her eat it all before giving it back to her. i believe the hardest part was trying to get it all down without laughing. she couldn't stop laughing. man... it made me laugh. well...she finally downed it, then had to down her whole lemonade, ice too. only then were we able to leave. they dropped me off at school and she had to get some alka seltzer from the cafeteria. i hope she's feeling all right now. anyways... just talked to kris not too long ago and she's not feeling well. man, now i'm gonna have to go over there and take care of her and nurse her back to health so she can get well sooner. i mean, who else do i have to make fun of and torture...although, there is her sister...hmm....anyways... chatted with amir, then he called me and we talked "on the phone" for a while. julie helped dad set up an email address at hotmail so now he has access to msn messenger. that's nice. i even got to talk to them. work went pretty well today. not many people came to see me, which was good for me. played some games...charlene moved some games over to the computer for me and josh to play. we also activated my account so i could log in. but wait...now she has my password, and now she's gonna go into my account and download a bunch of crap that takes up a lot of space, and then the tech guys are gonna call me into their office and "have a little chat" with me. oh no...i'm so screwed!!! jk. we're gonna download all that crap together. oh yeah, and that smelly smell was not me...it was some plant...and boy it smells bad. send me your regards....

today was one of those better days. josh invited me to the movies tonight to see lilo and stitch. we both liked it a lot. it was a cute movie. then...we went over to his house (well actually the keele's) and talked and he gave me a bag of yummy peaches. got home around ten and haven't done much since then but eat, chat, and take a shower. today i had a lot of students. i met with one to work on stats around 11:20am. kris came by to bring me my hat and belt, which i put on right away. then she and her sister gave me a ride from their parking space back to the parking lot. whew...i didn't think i could make it back walking. i might have keeled over and died on my way back. anyways, saw angelica today. she and i went to the photography room to find a photographer to take some pictures of "the trees" that they plan on cutting down...more to come about "the trees" in the future. anyways, i told her i could take some color photos and we agreed to meet tomorrow at 11am so she could drive me by to take a look. met charlene's sister who came by to borrow her "pizza card." you know, the kind where there's a lot of discounts on the back to a whole bunch of different restaurants... julie left for dad's today on am track. she'll be gone until the end of the week. YEA I'M AN ONLY CHILD!!! too bad it's only for a week though. i'm trying to convince kris to come live with us though. wish me luck...i really need it. finished watching like water for chocolate today in class. it was a good film, but sad too. if you wanna catch a good movie with quite a bit of nudity in it, this is the film for you...so...anyways...charlene, josh, and i wrote a mean email to kris today. now i feel bad. i don't think she took it seriously...i mean, she knows the truth, or at least should because i was totally honest with her...but i still feel bad. i mean, she's my friend and i'm supposed to be a friend back. sometimes i just feel like a horrible friend that i don't even want to know and then i realize that i am the way i am because i don't know what else to do...well enough about me for now...gotta finish my email to rene'. and kris....if you do not want to see me again, i would understand....

so today began my third week of la universidad para el verano. we had a grade check today and i have the highest grade in the class--whooopppeeeee..YEA!!!! i don't remember what it was though. it was a 101. something. anyways, julie didn't come to school today. she might drop the class. and i thought i hated my class. oh well. we saw a movie today...like water for chocolate. there was this naked woman running around. that's all i can remember. jk. it was pretty sad though. good thing it had english subtitles or i would have not understood anything except the mean mother and of course the naked woman. anyways... had several students today. if i get one more freakin' english paper....jk. they're getting better. also played a lot of freecell and just now at home i was playing diamond mine, the game joshy was playing earlier today at school. my game duration was 38:57, gems cleared were 1804, largest chain reaction was 6, highes scoring move was 160, and total score was 11630. i even had bonus x5. pretty good, eh? anyways... i'm just sitting here listening to some music...i get knocked down, but i get up again......i'll be waving my hand watching you drown, watching you scream, no one around....

okay...so i gotta go to bed soon, but i just wanted to log in a short message before going to bed. dad and shar were here so we went over to grandma and grandad's to eat lunch and look at wedding pics. i sprayed off the kennel side then took a late nap. my wisdom tooth is coming in and it really hurts. so far it doesn't hurt as much as my tooth that died, but it's pretty darn bad. now feel sorry for me. anyways, tomorrow starts another long four day week of school--ugghh. i can't wait for vacation. from this moment on....

just got home from cutting papers at kris's house. we finished her stack and i helped anahi with hers before having to come home. met "the woman" and her son. they seemed very nice. i played with Joshua and he became kinda hyper. my bad. kris's brother came. no one would let me watch fiddler on the roof again. i don't get it. no one ever wants to watch it with me, and yet they own it. it can't be that boring if they freakin' own it... anyways, woke up late, took about a three hour nap, did some spanish homework even though there is none due on monday, did the dishes, watered the bunny, and sat at this here good 'ol computer for the better part of the day. well...hopefully tomorrow (actually later today) is a more exciting day. dad is supposed to come down, so perhaps we'll do something fun. welp...back to my spanish and a little bit of freecell. and god be with amir and his roommate, ahmar. they had a little incident involving the kitchen, the sprinklers, and a fire? he's a big big god, big enough to help us...

ahhh... i just got home from the last night of vbs. it's been a fun and exciting week, but it's also been tiring. didn't attend last night. instead went to joshy's and jumped on the trampoline and talked. while we were on the trampoline, the sprinklers came on. he gave me a tour of the keele house and we talked some more. even listened to the F.U.N song. didn't spend the night though because he had to get up early this morning to do some work in his parent's yard. i promised that i would come back over though. i still haven't been swimming yet. got to sleep in until noon today. that felt nice. i was so tired yesterday. i almost fell asleep in both my class and in the learning center. i drank one of those starbucks coffee drinks though and then i couldn't go to sleep. i was still tired, but i was also wired. well...don't have much to say right now as i have not done much at all today. called up kris and talked to anahi. they came by looking for a paper cutter. no luck here though. no luck at emily's either. she didn't know where theirs was. anyways... although i missed last night, "god forgives us." and "he's a big big god...ready to forgive, and show us how to love....he's a big big god..."

well... i'm tired today. kept almost falling asleep during class. got four extra credit points for getting up in front of the class to answer questions though. that should help me on my exam. i'm so glad it's thursday because it means NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!! YEA!!! perhaps i'll sleep all weekend. of course i have vbs tomorrow night though. it should be fun. don't think i'm going tonight. emily and bryon said i took enough pictures to not have to go tonight. perhaps i'll take a rest. anyways, josh says i can come over if i want. i don't know yet for sure though. last night learned that "god wants to be our friend." kids were crazy though. lots of fun. didn't take a nap during lunch like i did yesterday. oh well...i guess i had more important things to do. i just can't remember what they were. got yelled at with josh yesterday by some lady who was working on her lab. gosh...i mean josh... she was trying very hard to concentrate because the work was sooooo hard and josh and i were talking and laughing at the anti-dolpin.org site. we were just too darn annoying. anyways, we had to be quiet and he had to go. talked to amir last night on msn and AIM. hey...i like AIM a lot. plus... i got to give myself a cool spongebob icon. amir couldn't see it, but i can when i talk to myself. yeah...that's the newest fad lately... talking to yourself online. it's pretty cool. you oughta try it sometime. anyways... i hope she'll talk to me. i worry. she tells me not to worry and i worry even more. don't forget..."god wants to be our friend."

i know...i haven't posted anything in a while...i mean, who even reads these anyways. that's okay. someday i'll sit down and read them all and then i'll think back on all the memories that i remember from these blogs and realize how truly glad that i am that all this is in the past. i've been having a dilemma the last couple of weeks or so, but i'm doing better. while it is not always the answer, time really does help make things better. sorry, can't really get into the good gossip stuff. anyways... so...saw mommy sporer on thursday of last week. couldn't talk to her though. i felt bad though because i think i made her feel bad. amir came up from irvine to see me. yes, you heard right. he came up to see ME. right now i am getting paid to post a blog on my webpage. that's pretty cool. can't beat that. i've been playing lots of freecell and lately i've been hooked on the game collapse through yahoo games. this week i'm taking pictures for vbs, or vacation bible school for all y'all out there who don't know what this vbs is. ate lunch today, but only because kris and anahi fed me. that's a good thing. i weighed myself the other day and i had lost ten pounds. i guess i've had more important things to think about lately, you know, like who of my friends hates me and what did i do now to screw up everything. well, just so y'all don't worry too much, i gained it all back...and in one day. so there. anyways, while i was able to eat (man, they even made me my favorite...macaroni and cheese and the kitchen *heeheehee) i didn't get a nap in. i still hate my class, and if you didn't know already, i hate my class, and i still hate it. it's too long and boring. oh well, i will survive...and if i don't, well, i guess i won't have to sit through spanish for three hours four days a week. saw capt. toe today. she brought me a catalog from slippery rock university in pennsylvania. it has a cool picture on the cover. now i can't decide if i want to live in the bell tower and change my name to quasimoto, or still live in her p.o. box. of course ringing the bell tower at odd times of the day sounds like it would be a lot of fun. i'm still not sure though. if you have any suggestions as to which decision is better, make sure you let me know. i mean...you know i'm not good at making my own decisions, so HELP ME OUT. amir, nat. and i went to see scooby doo on friday after spending the day at kris's. good movie. i enjoyed it. spent the night at amir's, then, amir and i went to see spiderman on saturday. you know what i thought? FINALLY!!! i thought i was going to have to wait until it came out on video before seeing it. it was an awesome movie. sad, but the coolest. kris and yolanda went to see a movie without me. i was so hurt. i was so sad. you can not imagine. i must have cried for two straight hours. well... would you believe one whole hour? how about ten minutes? how about i was steaming with jealousy? well, believe what you will. WHATEVER! saw jake today. that was nice. made him give me a hug like i did to brendan when i saw him for the first time in a long time. shawn came by yesterday. he and his family left early this morning to arkansas to take his dad's remains there. they'll be spending about a month over there, so if you're in arkansas or anywhere in the surrounding area, and you hear an explosion, it's just shawn and his family blowing up whatever they can get their hands on. well...i'll try to write more often...at least so i can amuse myself and see how much i myself can remember. so, do not forget what i learned in vbs last night--god knows us...AWESOME!!!

so...summer school began yesterday...i finally found a class--spanish!!! three hours is too long to sit in one class though if you ask me... only one person came by to be tutored both yesterday and today too. had lots of homework though tonight--in fact one week's worth of homework. yuck. anyways, it feels good to be back in school. had a fun time at shawn's birthday party on sunday. met his family. you know...the "inbred hicks from back east." they sure are crazy. had a wonderful never to be forgotten time a few days before that. last night all i wanted to do was crawl in a hole and die... today is a new day though...and i think i'm doing better. i believe i just might live out my dream to die alone.... send me your prayers...

i've been at this computer going on ten and a half consecutive hours. mrs. sporer was right, i have no life. at least i haven't been following her around and staring at her while she eats, like i usually do. anyways, perhaps i can get to bed earlier than i have been gettting to the past several nights, or should i say mornings. wait...before i forget...they cancelled my social problems class for summer school, and they did it this (well actually yesterday) morning. i can't freaking believe it. first they go and cancel my women writers class, and now they have the guts to go and cancel my sociology class. well, lucky for me, there was still available room in the art history class--ugghh...oh well. i will make the best of it. however, if they cancel this class, then i'm thinking that perhaps i'm not meant to go to summer school this year. anyways, i'm glad they let me know, even though classes begin in under a week. pity me...

didn't get to write yesterday. don't know what i was thinking. probably nothing since i try not to think. so far today, i haven't done much of anything at all. yesterday i mostly slept. it was cool though, on nickelodeon, they were showing like seven episodes of spongebob in a row. that was hella cool. then, as if things couldn't get any better, they came on again on the other nick channel. hey, it rocks having both east and west coast showings. i even got to see the F.U.N. episode, hey...F- is for friends who do stuff together... U- is for you and me... N- is for anywhere and anytime at all... down here in the deep blue sea. F- is for frolic, through all the flowers... U- is for ukelele... N- is for nose-picking, sharing gum, and sand-licking, here with my best buddy... man, i just love that song. oh yeah, and i saw this show on the spanish television channel and they had luchadoras on there. they were wrestling in some mud, or cheese, or chocolate, or something that looked like that. then, they smeared whip cream on each other in a boxing ring. now that's entertainment. anyways, until further happenings in the wonderful fantastical life of amysNott, we'll see ya...

so, what's been happening today? well, barely woke up to call kris, but did anyways. talked to amir on the phone, and hey, i didn't have to call him--he called me. made a couple of batches of brownies, even the carmel ones for captain toe because i know she loves them. had to start without kris though since they needed time to cool. mom made me. but...she came over, i lost my nerve...wait, those are words to a song. sorry i got off track like that. that is so me. anyways, we made strawberry cupcakes, a gift for julie since i wouldn't let her have any of captain toe's carmel brownies. she got mad and didn't want anything. i don't think she ate any. started watching stepmom. she wouldn't watch a classic with me. well, amir picked us up after getting emma, and we went to mr. osborne's anthro party. lots of fun. the party, i mean. the first pot latch i've ever been to. if you've never been to a pot latch before, you should go to one because you've been missing out. there was harmonica playing--good harmonica playing might i add, costumes, the giving of gifts from grads to everyone, speeches, and finally eating. good food. de-lish. plus, we were surprised with an extra special treat--martha stewart (natalie's mom, susan) came and talked to us about the many uses of duct tape, using cassette film as tissue paper, the uses of a five-gallon bucket, and how to make a halter top with men's underwear--that is, clean, new men's underwear. well, amir played with natalie's coconuts, ya know, the ones that mr. osborne of course has seen before. hey, there are even pictures. had fun, but had to leave, eventually. dropped emma off, went to jack in the box. went "cruisin" down main street--kind of, dropped kris off, then, went to kfc to get some popcorn chicken, all about ice cream, and came home. amir's leaving soon. soon as in like a couple of days. a couple of days as in tuesday. i'll miss him dearly and things will be weird without him here. he will be successful though. i have no doubt. he is a trooper. he'll keep on troopin'...even though he'll miss me. hello computer, here i am. bed, i'll be meeting with you shortly; don't get your feelings hurt. hey, tomorrow's a new day. i just wonder what new thing i'll learn then.

so, i didn't get a chance to post anything yesterday, but i have a good excuse...i mean reason....so, i barely wake up, and this is yesterday (friday) morning, when i receive this phone call. it was my friend krisnahi and she invited me and julie over to her house for a get together...so, she picked us up, we picked up some chicken from save mart--no huge birthday cake like i wanted to get--yet she did get one of each piece (like i suggested), and went over to her place. the party took off when yolanda and maribel and her daughter samantha got there and they kicked it off with some nice dancing (well i guess if you'd call that kind of dancing nice--jk). well, we took the party outside by the swimming pool. i was given ten minutes to take off my pants before being thrown into the pool...but hey, i carry a lot of good stuff around in my pockets...i can't have my spoon or the pencil i borrowed from mrs. sporer, or my change getting wet. anyways, so i take all the stuff out of my pockets and ya know what? i get thrown in the pool. man, this was the second time this week i've been thrown into the pool, the first being at the phi theta kappa party at judy's house when shawn and i planned it to see everyone's reaction. man, i missed it, but i heard that mrs. sporer's facial expression was priceless. anyways, we swam, we danced...the huge surprise being julie danced and even swam too...they made me order the pizza--me, the one that doesn't call people. kris went to see spiderman with dale, anahi and i cooked dinner--well let me rephrase that to anahi cooked dinner and i helped with the rice, which meant that i had to stand there and stir it and stir it some more, and keep stirring it more...almost as long as i had to stir the flan kris and i made that one time, you know, that one day. meanwhile, anahi cooked the kitchen. hahaha. anyways, kris, dale, jose and his son and his sister came, and we ate anahi's wonderful yummy dinner, then sat and talked. well, everyone but me...of course i would be the one sleeping...hmm...we went to see jose's new apartment, and his sister spent the night. we watched liar liar--they wouldn't let me watch any of the movies that i really wanted to see, you know, like that hair cutting video...anyways, got to bed late. woke up late--amir woke us up with a phone call. actually, it was my own fault. we were supposed to go to sam's farewell party at round table, but i didn't realize it was already so late (after 11am). well, we ended up spending the day laying around and watching spanish television shows. gosh, if that guy from that spanish television rating company calls me now, i'll definitely be ready for him. we sat outside and talked, the weather was really nice, actually nicer outside than inside, since there was a nice breeze of course. there was a fire not too far away. man, i hate fires. they're so scary, and destructive. i remember when our house caught on fire...i definitely feel for that poor family. we went to wal-mart. anahi had to get some things for jose for his birthday, but you know what? she couldn't make up her mind...and that's even with kris and i making it up for her. well, got home, took a shower, and made my way up to my dear 'ol computer, you know, the one i so hate...the one i've wanted to throw out the window so many times..hmm...well, anyways, i need sleep. i'm running on fumes. gotta get sleep. gotta go and catch me one of those movies, kris knows--they're the classics...