this is gonna be quick cause i need to get my beauty sleep. however, there are a few things i should probably mention before i forget. yesterday, mr. vega gave me a nice compliment and said his kids would probably like me a lot (they like spongebob). today he asked me if i knew that i was a crazy nut. hmm... the compliments just keep getting better and better... mommy sporer will be gone tomorrow. she has another one of those darn conference thingies. what am i supposed to do without her being there??? however, she let me borrow her dolphin (after i gave her a massage with it, hmm). kim sure liked it... another hmm... cancelled my tutoring appointment with kris at the advice of rene'. signed up for another tutor--patricia, who i convinced to tutor me every other friday then the other fridays to come to anthro meetings with me. hope she goes... talked to amir the other night. he and setie are supposed to be here this weekend. we'll see if i see them. have to make brownies--alone--for anthro club for the bake sale for el grito on monday. ptk is making chile verde. charlene was out sick on tuesday. mona punched me in the shoulder, teasing me today, we were supposed to take a group pic for tutoring but postponed it, mona and mary gave me their left over pizza from dominoes, and i ate part of angelica's rice--it was yummy. until laters man...see ya...

okay, so i'm glad that today was friday and that the fourth week of school is now over. wednesday was just a horrible day. i had no idea what was going on, and i felt like crap. thursday kinda fixed itself alright and was better. at least i kinda got her to hold on to me in the dark room. damn the dark room for being so dark!!! hehehe... anyways, we finished the prints she needed for class, which was a relief, especially since i didn't believe we'd have enough time to finish them all. luckily, my econ class was out early since it was the first tuesday of the month and mr. keele had a meeting to attend and kris came to help me out after her class was over. i definitely wouldn't have had the time to finish it all myself. they were nice, except this nice old innocent lady in class just had to look at the prints and when she saw them, claimed how in love kris must be.... with josh jones??? OH MY GOD!!! i hope not. don't get me wrong, josh is a nice guy and all, but wait a minute here... charlene took today off and today my english class was cancelled so i went to history 118 with anahi, yolanda, and kris. okay, so there weren't enough chairs in the room, but i got to sit down... i guess because i was taking notes for the three of them??? anyways, david was talking about unions and class got out early, which was nice. there was an anthropology club meeting today at noon. kris and i both attended. i couldn't convince anahi or yolanda to come. anyways, we elected our new officers today. kris is president--the only one who was interested in the position. i nominated her and sherrie seconded it. richard is vice president, sherrie is secretary/treasurer again, and mr. osborne gave me a "special" job of historian since i like to take pictures. anyways, according to our new pres, each of us has to bring a new member to the next meeting. man, i think it's turning into a dictatorship. however, i think mr. osborne kinda likes it. kris already made josh come to the meeting and join too. poor guy. i bet he's wondering what he's gotten himself into. anyways, after the meeting before she left, i actually got to give her a hug. dude, she freakin' let me touch her!!! anyways, i had class and she and josh had to go work on their project. by the way, joshy (my joshy, joshy blackburn) came by yesterday to pick up his diploma and came by rene's office, so i got to see him, which was good. also, instead of tutoring me in the morning, kris, anahi, yolanda, and i went over to kris' house and they made breakfast, so hey, i got to eat breakfast yesterday morning--something i didn't do today. chicken, beans, and tortillas--yummy. however, i think i prefer the kitchen, eh anahi??? well, back to today... i had class, which was great. david began the class by bringing in his jar full of chocolate and passing it around the class. then, he got out his guitar, and played and sang the song that he wrote to his wife for their 25th anniversary. supposedly it's like their 35th now, but you never know with him. sometimes he has 11 kids while other times he has only 8. today he said he's only been playing the guitar for 6 weeks and he's only been married for 6 months. you never know when to believe him or not though cause he's a believable guy. then, he talked about "saints" and "strangers" (pilgrims, puritains, and stuff) and we got out of class a little early. amir and his gf came by school as i was leaving. it was nice to see them. however, we didn't get to speak long, eh amir? mom, julie, and i went to lunch at ryan's and then went to target and longs so i could run by my film... yes...i've finally taken in my film of anahi's ring. oh yeah, and one more thing... or really two... yesterday... charlene gave me a ring pop--a blue one cause i like how they turn your mouth blue, and she also gave a strawberry one to kris. josh just called me right now and is going by to pick up his brother and sis-in-law and then me to go out to dinner and to see serving sara. just one more thing though... also, yesterday... charlene agreed to let me write up a fake test to give to all the new tutors on the videos they have to watch. it's gonna be great. more about that later, but for now, i gotta run and get ready. see ya...

well well...it is sunday, the first of september... emily and bryon were here today getting ready for bryon's birthday party tomorrow. i know i haven't written here in a while, but things have been busy lately. right now i am in the midst of reading article 12 for cultural anthro. class. yesterday i slept most of the day, and this last week at school, well...hmmm...it's over with. my intentions are meaningful, but i cannot bring myself to carry them out. i will try harder perhaps. this last thursday was amir's birthday. he's an old man--24 i think??? anyways, got to talk to him for about a half hour thursday morning and was a little late for stats class. also had a tutoring appointment with kris that didn't go so well... i blew it, i know i did. well... the parents just got home. more to come laters... NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!!! yipee!!!!

so...just got out of my child dev. class. yes...we got out a little early today. saw mrs. benander, who said she was thinking and thinks that i should rent out spaces on my head for money...hey...not a bad idea...now i'm just jealous that i hadn't thought of it first...well...i'd better be going. mommy put the programs on my calc. and now i'm trying to get my high score after losing my mem. laters man...

well...i am back at school. i am unsure of when exactly rene' will be here so i've resorted to staying here in the learning center at least for the time being. there isn't much to say as of now, so i will wait until either something exciting happens... (like that's likely to happen...) or...i can think up a really dumb story to tell, in which case, i'll just do that. anyways...sayonara suckers!!!!

okay...so i'm back...and it's still the same day... three classes later, with two slices of pizza and a pepsi swimming around in my stomach have brought me to this point right now. well...i tutored my second student this morning. it went pretty well. my third student had to cancel since he remembered that he has class...hmm... anyways... school's going pretty well. classes seem pretty easy so far. i think the only thing i'll be stressed over is all the homework. so far i've been keeping myself ahead in my classes. i love my history class. david is so cool. we had an i.d.e.a.s. orientation today at noon. it went well. before, michelle gave me a prize for accumulating the most participation points--i got a wallet. she said i had 32... i think i had more than that. anyways...we had dominoes pizza and sodas. i usually try to refrain from drinking soda, however, today i was tempted to have a pepsi. damn me!!!! anyways, if i'm a little wired today, then that's the reason. of course it can't be as bad as last night during photography when i ate a snickers bar and after looking in the refrigerator, found and ate a packet of sugar. jill and i were trying to come up with good birthday gifts. she suggested a hampster, which i thought i would kill on accident. i think a bowling ball came up as did stealing gnomes out of people's yards and placing them in the front yard. i guess this one guy in the class was cracking up when i walked into class with my krispy kreme hat and spongebob shirt on eating a corn dog. at least that's what jill says. we both agreed that i'll have to do that each class time to mess with him. anyways...about david... as i was on my way to class--is class...emily and i were walking with him and emily mentioned that she had her foot ran over by a shopping cart. david said that that was a good analogy to the grass being walked upon. then, he suggested that we start our own club--the grass patrol. he would be our advisor and we would have people from the club patrolling the grass to make sure no one walked on it. i said that we could wear those orange vests. we thought this was a good idea. plus, we'd post signs that said no walking or rolling on the grass. hehehe:) he had a bunch of handouts for us in class today, we covered more about history, then...we watched part of a video he brought in about wild wheels--a video on cars that people have decorated and made into art. that class is just great!!! anyways... i am here in the learning center right now trying to log into my hotmail account, which has been giving me problems lately. damn hotmail!!! anyways... i guess i'd better get some more reading and homework done. i will try to post more often if i get the chance...or what i guess i mean is if i don't forget. man...think i'm gonna try to download some more songs on my f-drive. i only have 14 as of right now...and...let me know what you think of my hampster gift.

man...it seems like the last time i've written something was like forever ago. anyways...i am here at school this morning waiting for my student to show up. it's gonna be another long day. i should've gone over to the i.d.e.a.s. office to sign in for my participation points, but i didn't. well...i will be back soon...hopefully...PEACE i'm outta here!!!

what the hell???

well...i'm headed to the beach tomorrow morning with josh. emily and bryon are headed over there right now and so we should be able to see them before they have to come back tomorrow night. there's so much to say, but can't say it all now. julie can't go, she has court. it's pretty stupid, if ya ask me, but anyways... i'm glad for the vacation. i need to get away, even if it's only for a few days. i'll be back though and then maybe i'll be ready to take on the rest of the world...laters....

man...i broke my computer... i deleted something that was in my recycle bin that wasn't supposed to be in there and now i can't open any applications... only after some creative maneuvers have i been able to open up a few of my programs... anyways, friday i spent the day with emily--she ran me by the dmv to pick up some driver's books. i got three in english and one in spanish. i think i'll take the test in spanish, so that way if i fail, i can always say..."but i couldn't understand it cause it was in spanish!!!" anyways, we ran by office max, where i bought some zip disks, and then wal-mart, where i bought an enrique iglesias cd...then, we went to whites to visit bryon and stopped by stafford's. larry even gave us a turtle shaped chocolate to eat there. whites was busy, so we went home--to emily's and bryon's and looked through the wedding pics i brought for emily for their scrapbook. joshy called and asked me if i wanted to go to the movies before he had to leave for his brother's in tulare to babysit. i met him to see mr. deeds which was at 1:50pm and we saw that. then, he took me by nana's where emily was doing her laundry. we talked, i ate, emily did some laundry, i took a nap, and we didn't leave until around 6:30pm. then, emily brought me home and i broke the computer... i've been trying to move all my files over to the other computer though so i can save them on zip disks so bryon can fix the new computer so we can use that one... this one definitely needs some help. i'm lucky to be able to get into this to write in my blog and to check my email. well...today (yesterday) i didn't do much. worked on saving more files and ran into town with mom and johnny to get a sandwich for dinner. actually, today is johnny's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHNNY!!! man...he's 44. i thought he was older than that... well...i better get going... hope to see y'all soon....

hellowwwww..... okay...so i haven't been keeping up with my blog, but you don't wanna hear all what's been going on anyways... this past weekend, josh housesat and babysat me. he had to save me twice, once from a black widow, the second time from a scorpion. he and christian made us dinner friday night and we all sat down and ate a nice dinner (we all as in me, julie, emily and bryon, josh, christian and sandra, and nat). pretty cool eh? what a nice happy little family. the next morning i woke up to josh making pancakes. he made me a triangle pancake and a mickey mouse pancake. we went to the movies then over to christian's. sunday i went over to kris's and monday morning, josh took me to school. the parents got home late monday night. received a huge surprise yesterday which made my day--micah and stacey came by on their day off to visit with me. another surprise was mommy coming by to pick up her tests. man...i just had to ask her..."why do you have braces?" anyways, she had to leave and i didn't even get to talk to her. kris came by to return my pencils--mis lapiceros. both micah and stacey said she didn't look too happy with me. didn't have to take my spanish test. spanish class didn't begin until 9am today. that was nice because i was able to sleep in about an hour after staying up until a little after 1:30am the night before talking with anahi. we gave our presentations...mikey's group's presentation was great--they did a classroom skit and mikey was the instructor, acting like sr. martínez. it was hilarious. we also finished watching la bamba and had a pot luck. i brought brownies i made the night before and there was nachos, seven layer bean dip, enchiladas, tortillas, chips, salsa, cake, cookies, and soda. as if that weren't enough, i found that i had a 109%, the highest grade in the class, and so i don't even have to go to school tomorrow for the final, nor do i have to turn in my notebook. marilyn gave me the rest of her soda, and when i went to the learning center, one of my students, maribel, who i've been helping in english and who julie tutored last semester, brought be lunch-- a whole dinner box full of pancit she made after she and i talked about pancit and i told her how much i liked it. boy was it delicious. YUMMY!!! and to think...i thought that nobody loved me. i also worked on my parenting skills lab and i am a horrible person because i hit my child. hey...he wouldn't shut up... anyways, today emily picked me up and it was the first time i've been with her alone when she's been driving. we met bryon at china's and ate then went over to the theatre to see what was playing. nothing looked worth $7.50, so we went to blockbuster where i saw john from class and we rented the royal tanenbaums. that was just a strange movie. i don't know what else to say about it. of course while we were watching it, emily received a phone call and was offered a job she just couldn't refuse. now she has to go in to work tomorrow and give steve her two week notice. after this phone call, she became really popular and the phone just wouldn't keep quiet. finally, we finished the film and she and bryon brought me home. man...today's been a great day... i wonder what my horoscope read for today...

today has gone better than yesterday for one thing... although yesterday after i talked to charlene, i felt a whole lot better.

hey...don't hate me...anyways...kris just left about twenty minutes ago. she was nice enough to give me a ride home since mom and johnny went to visalia to look for outfits to wear to kamber's wedding this weekend. josh says that he'll babysit me and he'll even watch fiddler on the roof with me. however, kris watched the end of the sixth sense with me today...after she made me make her a turkey sandwich and some easy mac and cheese because all she had to eat today was a soda...not even water...she told me that joshua keeps calling her mom around other people. she doesn't like it, but i think it's funny. hahaha... so...neither of us did any homework...and i'm still not doing any...however, i only have a couple of pages to write on mariachi culture for extra credit... josh got to level 400 today on penguin puzzle. we're keeping it going to see how far we can get...hmm... it was nice today with no class. however, i had mom drop me off at school this morning anyways...and...i did finish my spanish workbook chap. 6 extra credit work, so i can turn that in tomorrow. i saw michelle this morning and we talked for a while before i went to get a ham egg and cheese burrito for breakfast. boy the cafeteria's breakfasts are the best...and victoria is the best cook ever!!! her food is YUMMY!!! mom and johnny just got home... i tutored a bunch of people today--long day. oh yeah, before i forget...josh also says that he'll make me triangle pancakes...isn't that sweet??? well...i will be back later...goin' to check out if they brought me home anything....

okay...so it's around 9:30pm and mom and i just got back from a ride into town. johnny is at a latin jazz concert with his jazz students and julie is at christian's house. yesterday, we went over to josh's for a get together 4th of july/moving out of the keele's house party. first we had to stop by the grocery store though to pick up some food. we got there just in time. it was just before five and the store was closing at five. however, julie and alicia did not know where anything was. we went swimming, jumped on the trampoline--then sat on it for a while, i rode a scooter, ate barbequed hamburgers and hotdogs, josh and i went outside to watch the fireworks, then, we all watched the movie "the legend of drunken master" starring jackie chan. josh went to bed after the movie and everyone went home. julie and i stayed and julie slept on the couch and i slept in leslie's room. this morning, julie and i ate mint chip ice cream with carmel topping, whip cream, and a cherry for breakfast. yummy!!! josh had to clean up the house and pack up his stuff to take home. he dropped us off at home around 1pm and then had to go home for his family reunion get together thingy at his house. when we got home, i tried to help around the house...vacuuming the living room and stuff. then i didn't feel too well though and had to stop. it was pretty hot too. called emily and talked to her. she had the day off work and was doing some work around the house. mom and i ran over there to drop off their clothes and some other things. it is their 6th month anniversary and she was going to make dinner. i wanted to stay, but mom wouldn't let me. mom took me by longs so i could take in four of my rolls of film to be developed. i thought i had like 10 or 11 rolls to be developed, but i could only find 8. i hope i didn't lose any. anyways, i could only afford to develop half of them at the moment. i'm poor. i saw fernando though. he offered to develop them one hour for me for the same price as next day, but i told him that it was okay since i wouldn't be able to come pick them up later today. i don't remember all what i have pictures of. i know some must be from graduation and there may be some from kris's house and from amir's party and the ptk party. however, it will be a surprise what is on the rolls i took in. i guess i will have to wait until at least tomorrow to find out. i have no idea what i'll be doing tomorrow. perhaps sleeping a lot. hopefully one of my wonderful friends will give me a call wanting to "do" something so i can do something besides sleep all day. until then...

yo yo yo...what up??? kris just left my house like half an hour ago. she had to go pick up her sister from college. man...she should've just left her there for the weekend. anyways...she convinced me to put on the sixth sense...again. i mean...how many freakin' times am i gonna have to watch it with her??? well...we almost had to watch beauty and the beast. last time we so called "watched" it, i had to fast forward through most of the movie. anyways... we took a walk to see the house and popped some of those popper thingys. this morning i saw michelle in the trio office. we talked for a bit since when i went by my class, it was locked. i brought some tortilla chips and some salsa. julie and josh w. ran by the mini mart last night on their way to see mr. deeds to pick me up a bag of chips...how nice... anyways, we had to take a test...but then we went over to lynda's house and ate a bunch of food. she gave me a ride and we talked about school and stuff. she has a really nice house. almost the whole class came for the potluck. we had enchiladas, rice, burritos, 7 layer bean dip, homemade salsa, a whole bunch of different chips, and soda... we stayed there and had a good time. brendan gave us a ride back to school. he's the craziest driver i've ever had the privilege of riding with. he takes the off ramps at above 40 m.p.h. and weaves in and out of cars on the freeway. let me tell you...it was thrilling, but it was scary. clocked in at noon today to get me other two hours in since tomorrow is a holiday. josh was playing the penguin puzzle and had been playing it since 8am. he almost made it to level two hundred when he finally left and i took over from there. when i left at six, we were over level three hundred. i tutored ramon this morning in stats. i also read an english paper and helped maribel with her stats a little. mostly we talked though. kris, lisa, and joshua came by. charlene caught a glance at them and thought lisa was just one of kris's friends with her little brother. well...she is only 25 or 26, and her son is 3. man... i mean, anahi is 24, their brother is 22, and kris is almost 21. that's crazy. well... i'm still awaiting my response from rene'. i emailed her and she hasn't emailed me back yet. perhaps i am just too impatient... well...this might be a little off topic, but... why lately have i felt that i'm screwing myself up more and more??? we live in a strange and crazy world, and i am one messed up sick person...

okay...so kris just left...she came over to work on some of her trig homework. i was good. i promise. i wasn't even a little bit mean to her. anyways, i hope she's feeling better soon. she's feeling kinda dizzy. she shouldn't be driving when she feels this way. anyways... today maribel showed me her quiz. she missed problem four because she put 2.000 instead of 2 or 2.0 and it was all my fault because i was the one who told her to carry out her answers to four decimal points. however, she forgot the fourth one. hmmm..... well... josh clocked me in at noon today so i could get two hours i won't be getting on thursday. tomorrow i'll come in and clock in at the same time to get the other two hours. tomorrow we have a test in spanish on chapter five. this is good and bad...bad that we have to take a test, but good that it should be over around 9am then off to lynda's, a lady in the class who offered her home to us for a potluck. thanks lynda. then, after work... NO CLASS until tuesday of next week!!! YEA!!! anyways... julie babysat for buzz today. right now she actually found time to sit down and read. saw yolie this morning when i went in to sign in for my participation points for trio. we talked for a while about next year--she wants me to continue to work on the newsletter... michelle came in and came to give me a hug--haven't seen her in a while...anyways... i held my hand out instead for her to shake it and she got mad and slapped me. i swear... maribel should have done her binomial example on me getting slapped by my friends. let's say the probability of me getting slapped is .64 and it will be out of my next 100 encounters with friends. well... so maybe it's not a good binomial example, but maybe we could set up an experiment, eh??? josh drew a face on my hand. it's pretty cool. i should take a pic so y'all can see it. in my free time at work, which wasn't very long since i'm so popular... i downloaded songs onto my f drive...charlene told me i could do it!!! emily showed up, which was a nice surprise. she and bryon picked me up today because johnny had to go to bakersfield and mom was at ww. it was nice seeing them but they couldn't get their stuff--clothes, mail, etc, etc, etc.--cause they had to go to some meeting. well... i'll try to behave like yolie told me to do. it's hard, but i try... until i screw it all up again...

hey...what's up??? guess who i saw today... okay. you're never gonna guess, so i guess i'll just let you know--mrs. benander!!! that was cool. it made my day. gave her a big hug then told her a little about my spanish class. let's see...what else...oh yeah...you know who else i saw??? sheraz. yep. that's right. saw him carrying his computer to his car. put it inside...got in...and drove off. never to be seen again. at least hopefully not by josh. and nope...he didn't see me. since we're taking next monday off of class, our test on chapter five will be this wednesday. we got our tests back from chapter four. i didn't do as well. i mean, i knew i didn't do as well, but i wasn't expecting a 102!!! man was i surprised. anyways...charlene didn't come in to work today. tutored a couple of people in the morning. at one when josh got off, we went over to his place (still at the keele's...at least until they return this saturday) and swam. then, he had to take me back to the college so i could be there at two to work. we had a really fun great time throwing water bombs at each other, using the kick boards, going down the slide--he even got me to go down head first...etc, etc, etc. afterwards, he sprayed me off with the hose and took me back to school. boy was i refreshed for work. anyways, i was busy again today. of course josh had yet another slow day, playing games probably most of the time... helped some students--to the best of my knowledge--in math (both elementary and intermediate algebra), read a few papers, and helped maribel with her stats. kris and yolanda came by with joshua. kris brought me a keychain with my name on it from vegas. they were headed to the park. you know...it's just not fair...they got to go to the park, and i had to stay and work. man!!! josh didn't even remember me. how sad. gave her the parking pass that i picked up for her the other day though. i mean...i don't want her to walk all the way to where she's been parking. well... got home. did the dishes. talked to amir online and now i'm finishing up my blog for the day. if i can think of anything else interesting that has happened to me today, i'll be sure to include it later. until we shall meet again....

just got back from joshy's house. he came and picked me up a little after seven thirty and we went over to his church's park and ate some meat and beans. then, we went over to his house and rode scooters in the back yard. i didn't have my helmet on so i'm glad i didn't fall down and crack my head open. we went over to the pool and sat there while the sprinklers came on and talked and looked at the stars. finally, josh had to drive me home because he has to wake up early for a meeting tomorrow morning. so... i got home, read a mean email from amir... and now i'm talking to him online. he's telling me about some girl who lives in la or something like that and now he just left to talk to some other friends. if the keeles aren't back on monday, i'm going over to joshy's to swim between class and work. i hope they won't be back yet. i still haven't been able to swim and i really want to. well... that's all i have to say about that...

just got home from a day at maribel's house. first, her daughters cynthia and samantha and i played--they showed me their room and then they resorted to fixing my hair. then, we ate...chicken enchiladas and rice--YUMMY!!! maribel is a superb cook. her husband came home...cynthia and sammy were laughing throughout dinner... then, we watched mulan...it was the first time i've seen it. it was a good movie. sammy wants to be a little chinese girl because of it. finally, maribel and i sat down to work on some statistics (the reason i came over in the first place) and worked on chapters six through eight. she's finding that it's easier than it looks like to begin with--the same as with most of my other students who try to make it harder than it really is. well... we tired of stats so we took a look at her computer and i showed her how to scan pictures then email them, set her mic up, then tried to install her cd creator software which didn't allow us to install... hmmm... i never claimed to know a lot about computers. anyways, by this time it was about midnight, so she drove me home and now i'm up here on my dear 'ol computer that i love oh so much. it is almost one... i'm not sure when i'll get to sleep, and i feel like going downstairs to get something to eat. last night i had some crazy dreams... perhaps amir is right about dreaming after eating late. oh well... i actually like to dream. sometimes dreams are the only place we can truly have what we've always wanted. please take a number....

ohhh... umm... well now... i don't know if i have much of anything to say right now... i mean, i'm talking to amir right now and so you can guess why i don't have much to say... oh well... took our test today. got out of class early. took a short nap, and i say short because josh tickled my feet a couple of times and woke me up then mike took a picture of me which woke me up again. so... i took a walk and then went to the cafeteria to get something to eat. talked to victoria some while i was deciding what to eat. finally decided to have some chicken (no not kitchen, since anahi was not there), some green beans, and a home made bisquit. yummy. went back to the lc where i ate and then one of my stats students came needing help. helped him until he had to leave for work at noon. a little before one, roxana came with one of her english essays and josh had me read it. from then until about ten minutes till six, i had a student the whole time. roxana helped me with my spanish vocab sentences, and maribel came by for help. there were three other people ahead of her though so she left and we agreed she would call me tomorrow and then i would go over to her place to help her with her stats. but... this is only when she agreed to make me something to eat--chicken enchiladas--YUMMY!!! boy, i love my job!!! angelica came by... she scared me to death. she, charlene, and i listened to a couple of my solos on the studio band cd in charlene's office. that was pretty cool. then i had to leave. i had tried to call kris a couple of times to check on her, but their phone line was busy. gosh, it's always busy when i call. came home. mom and i went to hoagies to have dinner. emily wasn't working, but dinner was good. it was nice spending time with mom too. lately i've been busy with other stuff and haven't spent as much time with my family. i'm hoping to spend more time with emily and bryon because they are such good people and i am so lucky to have them in my family. i am still indecisive as to whether or not i should go to amir's over the fourth of july. i mean...i know it will be fun and all...i just don't know. talked to judy this morning and she said that i should go. i'm still not sure though. it's up in the air. i hate making decisions. i mean, i want to go, but at the same time, i want to stay here. i don't know why i always get myself into these kinds of predicaments. well... if you have any suggestions, please, feel free to bombard me with them. that is, everyone except amir. amir... no offense dude, but i already know what you think.... until i rant and rave yet again....

okay...i'm studying for my test tomorrow (i didn't think we had one, but i was wrong) but i thought i would take the time to post a quick blog. i got a response from rene'. she sounds very busy and i hope she's having fun. class went pretty well today. i was glad when 11am rolled around though. i met angelica and she and her friend took me to drive by the trees she wants to save from being cut down. then...we went for pizza at round table. her friend, ryan was his name, i believe...if not...my bad...was kinda quiet and shy. we ate some pepperoni pizza...yes, angelica the "vegetarian" ate it too... it was good, but angelica thought it would taste a whole lot better with lots of parmesian cheese on top of it... like twelve or so packets of cheese. then, her friend took away her drink and had her eat it all before giving it back to her. i believe the hardest part was trying to get it all down without laughing. she couldn't stop laughing. man... it made me laugh. well...she finally downed it, then had to down her whole lemonade, ice too. only then were we able to leave. they dropped me off at school and she had to get some alka seltzer from the cafeteria. i hope she's feeling all right now. anyways... just talked to kris not too long ago and she's not feeling well. man, now i'm gonna have to go over there and take care of her and nurse her back to health so she can get well sooner. i mean, who else do i have to make fun of and torture...although, there is her sister...hmm....anyways... chatted with amir, then he called me and we talked "on the phone" for a while. julie helped dad set up an email address at hotmail so now he has access to msn messenger. that's nice. i even got to talk to them. work went pretty well today. not many people came to see me, which was good for me. played some games...charlene moved some games over to the computer for me and josh to play. we also activated my account so i could log in. but wait...now she has my password, and now she's gonna go into my account and download a bunch of crap that takes up a lot of space, and then the tech guys are gonna call me into their office and "have a little chat" with me. oh no...i'm so screwed!!! jk. we're gonna download all that crap together. oh yeah, and that smelly smell was not me...it was some plant...and boy it smells bad. send me your regards....

today was one of those better days. josh invited me to the movies tonight to see lilo and stitch. we both liked it a lot. it was a cute movie. then...we went over to his house (well actually the keele's) and talked and he gave me a bag of yummy peaches. got home around ten and haven't done much since then but eat, chat, and take a shower. today i had a lot of students. i met with one to work on stats around 11:20am. kris came by to bring me my hat and belt, which i put on right away. then she and her sister gave me a ride from their parking space back to the parking lot. whew...i didn't think i could make it back walking. i might have keeled over and died on my way back. anyways, saw angelica today. she and i went to the photography room to find a photographer to take some pictures of "the trees" that they plan on cutting down...more to come about "the trees" in the future. anyways, i told her i could take some color photos and we agreed to meet tomorrow at 11am so she could drive me by to take a look. met charlene's sister who came by to borrow her "pizza card." you know, the kind where there's a lot of discounts on the back to a whole bunch of different restaurants... julie left for dad's today on am track. she'll be gone until the end of the week. YEA I'M AN ONLY CHILD!!! too bad it's only for a week though. i'm trying to convince kris to come live with us though. wish me luck...i really need it. finished watching like water for chocolate today in class. it was a good film, but sad too. if you wanna catch a good movie with quite a bit of nudity in it, this is the film for you...so...anyways...charlene, josh, and i wrote a mean email to kris today. now i feel bad. i don't think she took it seriously...i mean, she knows the truth, or at least should because i was totally honest with her...but i still feel bad. i mean, she's my friend and i'm supposed to be a friend back. sometimes i just feel like a horrible friend that i don't even want to know and then i realize that i am the way i am because i don't know what else to do...well enough about me for now...gotta finish my email to rene'. and kris....if you do not want to see me again, i would understand....

so today began my third week of la universidad para el verano. we had a grade check today and i have the highest grade in the class--whooopppeeeee..YEA!!!! i don't remember what it was though. it was a 101. something. anyways, julie didn't come to school today. she might drop the class. and i thought i hated my class. oh well. we saw a movie today...like water for chocolate. there was this naked woman running around. that's all i can remember. jk. it was pretty sad though. good thing it had english subtitles or i would have not understood anything except the mean mother and of course the naked woman. anyways... had several students today. if i get one more freakin' english paper....jk. they're getting better. also played a lot of freecell and just now at home i was playing diamond mine, the game joshy was playing earlier today at school. my game duration was 38:57, gems cleared were 1804, largest chain reaction was 6, highes scoring move was 160, and total score was 11630. i even had bonus x5. pretty good, eh? anyways... i'm just sitting here listening to some music...i get knocked down, but i get up again......i'll be waving my hand watching you drown, watching you scream, no one around....

okay...so i gotta go to bed soon, but i just wanted to log in a short message before going to bed. dad and shar were here so we went over to grandma and grandad's to eat lunch and look at wedding pics. i sprayed off the kennel side then took a late nap. my wisdom tooth is coming in and it really hurts. so far it doesn't hurt as much as my tooth that died, but it's pretty darn bad. now feel sorry for me. anyways, tomorrow starts another long four day week of school--ugghh. i can't wait for vacation. from this moment on....

just got home from cutting papers at kris's house. we finished her stack and i helped anahi with hers before having to come home. met "the woman" and her son. they seemed very nice. i played with Joshua and he became kinda hyper. my bad. kris's brother came. no one would let me watch fiddler on the roof again. i don't get it. no one ever wants to watch it with me, and yet they own it. it can't be that boring if they freakin' own it... anyways, woke up late, took about a three hour nap, did some spanish homework even though there is none due on monday, did the dishes, watered the bunny, and sat at this here good 'ol computer for the better part of the day. well...hopefully tomorrow (actually later today) is a more exciting day. dad is supposed to come down, so perhaps we'll do something fun. welp...back to my spanish and a little bit of freecell. and god be with amir and his roommate, ahmar. they had a little incident involving the kitchen, the sprinklers, and a fire? he's a big big god, big enough to help us...

ahhh... i just got home from the last night of vbs. it's been a fun and exciting week, but it's also been tiring. didn't attend last night. instead went to joshy's and jumped on the trampoline and talked. while we were on the trampoline, the sprinklers came on. he gave me a tour of the keele house and we talked some more. even listened to the F.U.N song. didn't spend the night though because he had to get up early this morning to do some work in his parent's yard. i promised that i would come back over though. i still haven't been swimming yet. got to sleep in until noon today. that felt nice. i was so tired yesterday. i almost fell asleep in both my class and in the learning center. i drank one of those starbucks coffee drinks though and then i couldn't go to sleep. i was still tired, but i was also wired. well...don't have much to say right now as i have not done much at all today. called up kris and talked to anahi. they came by looking for a paper cutter. no luck here though. no luck at emily's either. she didn't know where theirs was. anyways... although i missed last night, "god forgives us." and "he's a big big god...ready to forgive, and show us how to love....he's a big big god..."

well... i'm tired today. kept almost falling asleep during class. got four extra credit points for getting up in front of the class to answer questions though. that should help me on my exam. i'm so glad it's thursday because it means NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!! YEA!!! perhaps i'll sleep all weekend. of course i have vbs tomorrow night though. it should be fun. don't think i'm going tonight. emily and bryon said i took enough pictures to not have to go tonight. perhaps i'll take a rest. anyways, josh says i can come over if i want. i don't know yet for sure though. last night learned that "god wants to be our friend." kids were crazy though. lots of fun. didn't take a nap during lunch like i did yesterday. oh well...i guess i had more important things to do. i just can't remember what they were. got yelled at with josh yesterday by some lady who was working on her lab. gosh...i mean josh... she was trying very hard to concentrate because the work was sooooo hard and josh and i were talking and laughing at the anti-dolpin.org site. we were just too darn annoying. anyways, we had to be quiet and he had to go. talked to amir last night on msn and AIM. hey...i like AIM a lot. plus... i got to give myself a cool spongebob icon. amir couldn't see it, but i can when i talk to myself. yeah...that's the newest fad lately... talking to yourself online. it's pretty cool. you oughta try it sometime. anyways... i hope she'll talk to me. i worry. she tells me not to worry and i worry even more. don't forget..."god wants to be our friend."

i know...i haven't posted anything in a while...i mean, who even reads these anyways. that's okay. someday i'll sit down and read them all and then i'll think back on all the memories that i remember from these blogs and realize how truly glad that i am that all this is in the past. i've been having a dilemma the last couple of weeks or so, but i'm doing better. while it is not always the answer, time really does help make things better. sorry, can't really get into the good gossip stuff. anyways... so...saw mommy sporer on thursday of last week. couldn't talk to her though. i felt bad though because i think i made her feel bad. amir came up from irvine to see me. yes, you heard right. he came up to see ME. right now i am getting paid to post a blog on my webpage. that's pretty cool. can't beat that. i've been playing lots of freecell and lately i've been hooked on the game collapse through yahoo games. this week i'm taking pictures for vbs, or vacation bible school for all y'all out there who don't know what this vbs is. ate lunch today, but only because kris and anahi fed me. that's a good thing. i weighed myself the other day and i had lost ten pounds. i guess i've had more important things to think about lately, you know, like who of my friends hates me and what did i do now to screw up everything. well, just so y'all don't worry too much, i gained it all back...and in one day. so there. anyways, while i was able to eat (man, they even made me my favorite...macaroni and cheese and the kitchen *heeheehee) i didn't get a nap in. i still hate my class, and if you didn't know already, i hate my class, and i still hate it. it's too long and boring. oh well, i will survive...and if i don't, well, i guess i won't have to sit through spanish for three hours four days a week. saw capt. toe today. she brought me a catalog from slippery rock university in pennsylvania. it has a cool picture on the cover. now i can't decide if i want to live in the bell tower and change my name to quasimoto, or still live in her p.o. box. of course ringing the bell tower at odd times of the day sounds like it would be a lot of fun. i'm still not sure though. if you have any suggestions as to which decision is better, make sure you let me know. i mean...you know i'm not good at making my own decisions, so HELP ME OUT. amir, nat. and i went to see scooby doo on friday after spending the day at kris's. good movie. i enjoyed it. spent the night at amir's, then, amir and i went to see spiderman on saturday. you know what i thought? FINALLY!!! i thought i was going to have to wait until it came out on video before seeing it. it was an awesome movie. sad, but the coolest. kris and yolanda went to see a movie without me. i was so hurt. i was so sad. you can not imagine. i must have cried for two straight hours. well... would you believe one whole hour? how about ten minutes? how about i was steaming with jealousy? well, believe what you will. WHATEVER! saw jake today. that was nice. made him give me a hug like i did to brendan when i saw him for the first time in a long time. shawn came by yesterday. he and his family left early this morning to arkansas to take his dad's remains there. they'll be spending about a month over there, so if you're in arkansas or anywhere in the surrounding area, and you hear an explosion, it's just shawn and his family blowing up whatever they can get their hands on. well...i'll try to write more often...at least so i can amuse myself and see how much i myself can remember. so, do not forget what i learned in vbs last night--god knows us...AWESOME!!!

so...summer school began yesterday...i finally found a class--spanish!!! three hours is too long to sit in one class though if you ask me... only one person came by to be tutored both yesterday and today too. had lots of homework though tonight--in fact one week's worth of homework. yuck. anyways, it feels good to be back in school. had a fun time at shawn's birthday party on sunday. met his family. you know...the "inbred hicks from back east." they sure are crazy. had a wonderful never to be forgotten time a few days before that. last night all i wanted to do was crawl in a hole and die... today is a new day though...and i think i'm doing better. i believe i just might live out my dream to die alone.... send me your prayers...

i've been at this computer going on ten and a half consecutive hours. mrs. sporer was right, i have no life. at least i haven't been following her around and staring at her while she eats, like i usually do. anyways, perhaps i can get to bed earlier than i have been gettting to the past several nights, or should i say mornings. wait...before i forget...they cancelled my social problems class for summer school, and they did it this (well actually yesterday) morning. i can't freaking believe it. first they go and cancel my women writers class, and now they have the guts to go and cancel my sociology class. well, lucky for me, there was still available room in the art history class--ugghh...oh well. i will make the best of it. however, if they cancel this class, then i'm thinking that perhaps i'm not meant to go to summer school this year. anyways, i'm glad they let me know, even though classes begin in under a week. pity me...

didn't get to write yesterday. don't know what i was thinking. probably nothing since i try not to think. so far today, i haven't done much of anything at all. yesterday i mostly slept. it was cool though, on nickelodeon, they were showing like seven episodes of spongebob in a row. that was hella cool. then, as if things couldn't get any better, they came on again on the other nick channel. hey, it rocks having both east and west coast showings. i even got to see the F.U.N. episode, hey...F- is for friends who do stuff together... U- is for you and me... N- is for anywhere and anytime at all... down here in the deep blue sea. F- is for frolic, through all the flowers... U- is for ukelele... N- is for nose-picking, sharing gum, and sand-licking, here with my best buddy... man, i just love that song. oh yeah, and i saw this show on the spanish television channel and they had luchadoras on there. they were wrestling in some mud, or cheese, or chocolate, or something that looked like that. then, they smeared whip cream on each other in a boxing ring. now that's entertainment. anyways, until further happenings in the wonderful fantastical life of amysNott, we'll see ya...

so, what's been happening today? well, barely woke up to call kris, but did anyways. talked to amir on the phone, and hey, i didn't have to call him--he called me. made a couple of batches of brownies, even the carmel ones for captain toe because i know she loves them. had to start without kris though since they needed time to cool. mom made me. but...she came over, i lost my nerve...wait, those are words to a song. sorry i got off track like that. that is so me. anyways, we made strawberry cupcakes, a gift for julie since i wouldn't let her have any of captain toe's carmel brownies. she got mad and didn't want anything. i don't think she ate any. started watching stepmom. she wouldn't watch a classic with me. well, amir picked us up after getting emma, and we went to mr. osborne's anthro party. lots of fun. the party, i mean. the first pot latch i've ever been to. if you've never been to a pot latch before, you should go to one because you've been missing out. there was harmonica playing--good harmonica playing might i add, costumes, the giving of gifts from grads to everyone, speeches, and finally eating. good food. de-lish. plus, we were surprised with an extra special treat--martha stewart (natalie's mom, susan) came and talked to us about the many uses of duct tape, using cassette film as tissue paper, the uses of a five-gallon bucket, and how to make a halter top with men's underwear--that is, clean, new men's underwear. well, amir played with natalie's coconuts, ya know, the ones that mr. osborne of course has seen before. hey, there are even pictures. had fun, but had to leave, eventually. dropped emma off, went to jack in the box. went "cruisin" down main street--kind of, dropped kris off, then, went to kfc to get some popcorn chicken, all about ice cream, and came home. amir's leaving soon. soon as in like a couple of days. a couple of days as in tuesday. i'll miss him dearly and things will be weird without him here. he will be successful though. i have no doubt. he is a trooper. he'll keep on troopin'...even though he'll miss me. hello computer, here i am. bed, i'll be meeting with you shortly; don't get your feelings hurt. hey, tomorrow's a new day. i just wonder what new thing i'll learn then.

so, i didn't get a chance to post anything yesterday, but i have a good excuse...i mean reason....so, i barely wake up, and this is yesterday (friday) morning, when i receive this phone call. it was my friend krisnahi and she invited me and julie over to her house for a get together...so, she picked us up, we picked up some chicken from save mart--no huge birthday cake like i wanted to get--yet she did get one of each piece (like i suggested), and went over to her place. the party took off when yolanda and maribel and her daughter samantha got there and they kicked it off with some nice dancing (well i guess if you'd call that kind of dancing nice--jk). well, we took the party outside by the swimming pool. i was given ten minutes to take off my pants before being thrown into the pool...but hey, i carry a lot of good stuff around in my pockets...i can't have my spoon or the pencil i borrowed from mrs. sporer, or my change getting wet. anyways, so i take all the stuff out of my pockets and ya know what? i get thrown in the pool. man, this was the second time this week i've been thrown into the pool, the first being at the phi theta kappa party at judy's house when shawn and i planned it to see everyone's reaction. man, i missed it, but i heard that mrs. sporer's facial expression was priceless. anyways, we swam, we danced...the huge surprise being julie danced and even swam too...they made me order the pizza--me, the one that doesn't call people. kris went to see spiderman with dale, anahi and i cooked dinner--well let me rephrase that to anahi cooked dinner and i helped with the rice, which meant that i had to stand there and stir it and stir it some more, and keep stirring it more...almost as long as i had to stir the flan kris and i made that one time, you know, that one day. meanwhile, anahi cooked the kitchen. hahaha. anyways, kris, dale, jose and his son and his sister came, and we ate anahi's wonderful yummy dinner, then sat and talked. well, everyone but me...of course i would be the one sleeping...hmm...we went to see jose's new apartment, and his sister spent the night. we watched liar liar--they wouldn't let me watch any of the movies that i really wanted to see, you know, like that hair cutting video...anyways, got to bed late. woke up late--amir woke us up with a phone call. actually, it was my own fault. we were supposed to go to sam's farewell party at round table, but i didn't realize it was already so late (after 11am). well, we ended up spending the day laying around and watching spanish television shows. gosh, if that guy from that spanish television rating company calls me now, i'll definitely be ready for him. we sat outside and talked, the weather was really nice, actually nicer outside than inside, since there was a nice breeze of course. there was a fire not too far away. man, i hate fires. they're so scary, and destructive. i remember when our house caught on fire...i definitely feel for that poor family. we went to wal-mart. anahi had to get some things for jose for his birthday, but you know what? she couldn't make up her mind...and that's even with kris and i making it up for her. well, got home, took a shower, and made my way up to my dear 'ol computer, you know, the one i so hate...the one i've wanted to throw out the window so many times..hmm...well, anyways, i need sleep. i'm running on fumes. gotta get sleep. gotta go and catch me one of those movies, kris knows--they're the classics...

so, i received this phone call tonight. it was some guy calling from some spanish television rating company. he wanted to know if there was anyone in the home that was 18 years or older. well, i told him that i was 18 years or older, along with everyone else in the household. so, he started asking me these questions really fast. i mean, i wanted to tell him to take a breath or something, but then that would have been rude. so, i let him ask me the questions. questions like, "so, have you watched a spanish television show for longer than an hour in the past seven days?" man, of course not. well, i told him that i didn't, but i listen to a pretty cool spanish radio station. of course he wasn't interested in any cool spanish radio station, so he asked me again "have you watched a spanish television show for longer than an hour in the past seven days?" man, i just told you no, but hey, if ya want me to talk, here we go..."well, when i was at my friend's house, we watched this spanish television show...i mean, it was kind of like jerry springer, but it wasn't jerry springer, and it was in spanish. of course my friend had to translate it for me because i couldn't understand it, but there was this witch doctor or something like that on it and she had a jar of poison...." blah blah blah..."oh yeah, and this was longer than seven days ago because i haven't been over to her house in a while." well that did it for the guy. i guess he finally gave in to the fact that no i hadn't seen any spanish television show within the past seven days, and i was just wasting his time. man, he finished that conversation fast--almost as fast as he talked...